It was 1976 and I was given money for an abortion. I chose adoption.
Had I kept my child how my life would have been so much better but clearly so different.
Had I kept him with me as I had really wanted,  I would have smiled every day.
I never would have shed tears for 32 years.   I never would have married the evil man I did.   I never would live  where I do now.  I never would have learned all the things in life I needed to learn,  about people and how they really are.

It would have been hard yes. I would have been an awesome Mommy to him.  See I was not that strong back then I had no idea that giving him to a family who would adore him showed really how strong I was.  I just never thought I could do it on my own and give him everything a child deserved.

So had I taken that road I would have done great.  I never would have known you all and be able to share him all with you.  Thirty two years after kissing him goodbye I was saying hello to him and starting a different journey,  in fact down yet another road.  Who knows where this one will take us but he is just like me so I think it will be FUN.

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