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Daily Prompt: Que Sera Sera

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Do you believe in fate or do you believe you can control your own destiny?

 

 

I always thought I was in charge of who  I would become or where life would take me but in the end,  as those who have followed me from the start know,  in my case,   it was to be.

Yes life was fun and I had a blast then it was hard so very hard but I made it.

I ran from evil and got strong enough to be blessed with a life that was in the cards for me.

I am so happy  with what fate had in store for me :) though everyone would be better off with less pain in their lives I think. 

Hope you are like me and find yourself just where you are meant to be.  We all deserve to BE HAPPY!
 

Yes More Snow They Say

Sorry I am so seldom on here and so few of you actually show up in the  WP READER that I follow,  for when I have time to check in now and then.  You see we are having, as far as I am concerned, a winter from hell.  Now the skiers, snowmobilers and snowboarders LOVE IT!  It is all in how you look at things and when all I see is WHITE I am far from impressed! 

So I took a Watercolor class it was only three hours long but between the colorful woman from Russia who taught it and the pallet of gorgeous colors I brought to choose from, those three hours were just what the doctor ordered.

After trying to beat the ice covered yard I GAVE UP!  I never give up but I was truly defeated by all this #*%&!  Thirty four days till SPRING and that will not mean this snow will end, you see here in New England it is not over some years until we are into MAY!  They say global warming I say BULL!   It has been brutal here with not only the snow but bitter cold and we are getting another eight inches or more tonight they say blizzard conditions and I am tired of blogging like I am a weather forecaster.  You know I even left 10 inches of snow on the roof, we just could not move anymore and were not safe up there in 40 mile per hour winds so enough is enough.   I would wave a white flag but surly only the bear and coyote would see me and I would scare my little birds away as if the Eagle, Coopers Hawk and Sharp Shinned ones don’t do that already. :)

So last night I sat with my paints and began to pick up pretty colors and in a Monet fashion I added pretty colors to the white paper in what they say is a wash.  They are now dry and I love the look of these small pieces of paper, now I will try to add some interest in the foreground not even sure I am supposed to do it this way as it was only a three hour class.  Seems like this is how I roll.  I learn the basic points and go off on my own I guess I never really saw myself that much of a rebel but indeed I guess I am.

What do you all do when weekends roll around or on an evening when you scream out UNCLE?  See I don’t drink or smoke or go out dancing any more so I make things,  so I stay out of trouble.

I take photos too when it is not dark out and here are a few of my world these days but you are probably tired of hearing about lousy weather too.

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Since all I plan on adding to the inside of these garden walls this year are Sunflowers we dump the snow inside, now it maybe May till I can poke my finger in the soil a half inch to drop the seed.  Spring is coming isn’t it?  I should pray it come slowly or the house will be surly under water if we get nasty flooding you see there is no rhyme or reason some of you have nothing and us TOO MUCH.
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JT popped her new  orange ball, so I took this one out and then I bought her another larger one, Pink Minnie Mouse but when storm is coming I throw it in the back seat of the truck so we can find it come morning.

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 This is up against the Lilacs I chopped in half,  between my brutal pruning and all this, that will melt, I am sure they will be MONSTERS again.
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Before the last storm.

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We will sit and wait for the next 8 inches to arrive this afternoon and he just told me he will go up on the roof now to get some weight off of it before the next storm arrives one good thing if we fall the snow banks around the house are so high we won’t fall far.

Always the silver lining!

Have an awesome weekend.

I Always Seem To FIGHT

The Daily Post Prompt Fight or Flight!

Looking back at my adult years for some reason I always rush in.

I never stop and take the time to see if there will be any danger in doing so.

Maybe it started in my home as a child and Dad pulling over to help stranded motorists or maybe all the years I was a Girl Scout.

I have met some wonderful people by stopping and asking “Can I help you?”

Some I didn’t have to ask because if I had not done something they would have died.   I could do with out worry and drama but it is who I am,  I recuse animals or people and yes there have been times I wish I had put more thought into it.

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Never have I been great at doing these and I even forgot how to grab the url for award photo all I kept getting was the one for this lovely lady at number 1 slot’s info :)  yes I have been away and for that I am so thankful I am filled with so much love and joy I can hardly stand it but I will it beats hatred for one’ self hands down!

I love each of you ladies listed here

You have helped me get through this amazing year of letting go as did the rest of you not listed here and the men too I know you stopped by and left your mark.

One month from now I will have been here a YEAR man you all really are family I have a brother I have not seen in over 10 years :(  that will change too!

So back to you listed above you took a busted up female trucker in  and gave me hope for a better life and yes it was hard at times but feeling safe I began to let go and let God and with my son’s help found a new set of tools to live once again oh and chats with him again are icing on the cake!

Love you all and if you do not know each other yet please take the time to say hi to each other

To all over on 20 Lines too many to list you had my back from the start! XOXOXOXO

Eunice

New England In Winter Wraps

Hi everyone.  No I am not lost but usually I shovel then suffer in pain but it is the workouts that have me seeing consistent success now at the scale on Tuesdays and is getting me closer to goal which will be a HEALTY weight never scrawny .  I need my strength to make it through my meditation as well as that new English Garden I will be working on if winter ever let’s go of her death grip up here.  No don’t worry just hard on old broken bodies but my sense of humor such as it is will get me to spring  oh and the rains!  Today NH is under the spell of another huge storm and why I am getting rains when others are getting twelve more, heavy wet inches of snow  I have no idea but you know I am so grateful for each and every drop for it is melting our snowpack and snow on the roofs is shrinking too he said it was too slippery to climb up yesterday which worried me with the weight of heavy wet snow ruining so many homes and businesses elsewhere.  Well I sold my conversion van and made another friend.  She too is an author with all of you here I follow and follow me I can surely get my three written!  I sold the van to get cash to fix my pick-up the one with the PLOW kind of late now as the birds are already singing their hearts out looking for the prettiest girls in town.  I will scrub hummingbird feeders again to make sure no dust has gotten into the bags I store them in and get the seeds started for my garden even if I have to grow in 5 gal. buckets or a pallet have you seen that on Pinterest?  I think this year I will even start Sunflowers in egg cartons or yogurt cups as I have plenty of empties and this way after the diet of black oil sunflower seeds I have been going through with my wildlife so far almost 400 lbs. of seed, they will not be able to dig up the ones I hide to line my yard with.  Hard to outsmart wildlife though I am sure something hungry will come for the green growth like us and our salad greens!

 

So how have you all been?  Life good or hard right now?  I love hearing from you all and that some of you are regular visitors to my Portfolio Blog  please me.  You can comment on any blog.  Tell me if you like certain photo or what you don’t like remember the only thing I have ever been a professional at is a driver, a big rig driver so you can help by chiming in .  Some of you know I have been selling my photos on FAA under  Eunice Miller  and that I even set up a Facebook page that will link my photographs I have placed for sale right to their site in most cases.  If you are artists that have begun to follow my blog thank you.  Blogging has made me a better photographer still not anything to write home about but me and my little Kodak Easy Share once in a while capture something pretty and moving to some besides me for which I am thankful for isn’t that why we decide to step out of our nice comfy spot at home and reach out to the world at large with art and words.  I would not have gotten to know you all had I not taken that very first step last Memorial Day weekend.  I am blessed by each and every one of you and I think you already know that by what we have shared.

 

Now it wouldn’t be a Living and Lovin  blog without a photo or two so this is what I have been thinking of

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My Lilacs in full bloom calling out to all the insects and pretty butterflies that adore them as much as I do even Ron loves them  JT loves to smell them she is a girl you know and all girls love pretty flowers.

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For the bees to arrive so my fruit trees will bless us and the wildlife who also love fruit.

 

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Now the Forsythia that are all over this place we call home are sure signs of SPRING arriving.

 

Now for this year along with the new English Garden area Ron will make me a sculpture as he was a welder for 35 years before retiring early with injuries.  I am thinking something in pretty copper but maybe a mix if they can be put together with the arc from his welding rod.  He is the pro so I will let him do his thing and praise the heck out of him because he is a good man to put up with me and so much sadness though it has gotten so much better since I have stopped hiding.  So look for a blog on his artist work in the future here.

I will also divide my Hostas  for an upcoming Garden Club Plant Sale in early May and take some new Lilacs and move them to my berm on the eastern side of my property  I will add some  shoots of Forsythia on berm as well because they will look beautiful as they grow and drape along this area with the Lilacs up above with a few little pretty shaped Pines.  It will provide me with Privacy yes but mostly block the Orange Fence(plastic snow fence) from my view while I sit and tend to my garden since I do not see her as ever taking it down,  even though it sits on the towns right a way.

So for now I will look and deal with the CRUD of Winter with visions of a beautiful spring!

 

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We will hang out by the sea a lot till them even on a lousy weather day we can always find a ray of hope here along the water’s edge.

 

Take care everyone and again stop in at anyone of my places here on the world-wide web, you are more than welcome.

 

Another Storm Brewing

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I took this photo yesterday along the river but facing out to sea.  It was beautiful over here, less wind then when JT and I tried to join her daddy on the ocean side, man was it cold and a very brisk wind.  Cold we can take but that constant wind is not good and I am bundled up, well  all but my weather-beaten face and to protect her from the harsh elements I have gone through my whole life,  we walked over here to take shelter from the storm that was brewing.

What a deceiving day.  It was so pretty to look at.  Made me what to shower and get dressed and head out with him.  I was down another two pounds on Tuesday weigh-in so I wanted to keep up the hard work.  Funny you see something working even if it causes pain I am the type that has always been tough and just pushed through it.  I am not saying it is smart , just saying more about who I am.

I have one month left before I leave and want to take in all my world has to offer.  I want to walk and spend time with them.  I will miss the three of them,  who share this home with me.  My son said he missed his pup but knowing she was with friends allowed him to take on the challenge himself so I will let go and trust.  JT loves me as much as Mike’s dog adores him but Mike does spend time during the day without his girl and JT is always beside me lol I am her person.  She watches over me and protects me even when I am not in danger so maybe after she gets over missing me for first few days she will become a dog again.   Something tells me we will be like that commercial that runs here,  of the lady coming back from war with her huge dog greeting her on the ground covering her with kisses, will also be played out here,  hell being on the floor meditating for 10 days 14 hours a day will have the ground being normal for me.  Wish me luck!  lol

 

OK back to the REAL STORM BREWING this morning I woke to a weather report saying maybe we would miss a big snowstorm Thank You for listening to my prayers this time now they say just three to four inches but wet snow this time.  JT loves catching snowballs she will be so happy.  Now I will show you a few photos from the river as the sea.  They are not my best and I am sorry I was freezing and will blame them on the wind!

Now look at the next pictures don’t them make it seem like it is just a beautiful day to SUNTAN

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Not a care in the world.

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A Loner lol no room for anyone else on this ones beach.

 

OK want to see some more again sorry shaking too much for really pretty ones but I am sure you will love them.

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Now the mighty Atlantic Ocean was really churning and so frothy.  The storm was still a twelve-hour ride away down in Virginia.   So I really thought we would be getting another NEMO like storm.  Looks can be deceiving right beautiful blue sky pretty colorful sea. BRRRRRRR

 

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Wind blown JT waits for me to throw a hefty stick to her.  No FRISBEE in these winds.

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Well you can see she is tiring of me and my photos time to go for a walk

 

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Have a nice weekend
 

 

Before and After Our Recent Blizzard

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So this is how the yard looked as we heard about NEMO arriving in our section of the US.

We got gas in the pick-up truck and in a gas can for our very old snow blower, we just hoped

it could stand up to the storm they were predicting for us. They said from 1 foot of fresh

light powder type snow to 2 feet in some places.  The also said the winds would be wild.

I am here to show and tell that yes it arrived and what a storm it was.  We never lost power

as so many did just south of us,  maybe lots north of us as well I never watched the news we were too busy

moving SNOW.

 

You see the snow just started falling and it seemed it would never stop.  I said I would stay up all night

and shovel it off as three inches fell,  you know I have a bad back and plow truck is broken and I wanted

to help him as I knew him with a bad heart would be hours moving it from the rest of our yard.  Well I fell

asleep and woke at 4 AM to let the dog and cat out.  That wasn’t happening as the snow was up against the back door,

so in a robe, Bright Red(would help to find me if I fell and cracked my head, lol) and winter boots pulled on

over bare feet I stepped outside while JT and Rhythm watched from the warm living room, with their legs crossed,

as their Mom shoveled a 10′ long path for them to go do their business . The cat stepped out and right back in,  her litter box is

all she would need.  JT could pee but need more room to do anything else so here I am, snow coming down making and area wider

at the end of the path for her boy does she have a good Mommy.  Now I forgot to tell you the snow was deeper than the boots I use in winter,

I refuse to wear knee-high boots for anything besides fashion!

She was now done and waited to be wiped dry,  yes she is so spoiled and now I have just had a workout and unable to sleep, so I worked on the computer

and had my coffee and waited for daybreak,  so I would not wake the dead(my neighbors) when I started the snow blower,  my intent was to punch a path for

the pets and the wild birds who feed on the ground.  It would be fast,  NOT!   It took 2 hours for me behind the machine to make a path through the snow that

had not yet stopped  and to clear an area below the bird feeders.  He was up by now with all the racket and he took over.  He was out there for 8 hours moving

snow!  Remember we have a small and very old snow thrower.

Here are some after shots.

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Can you see the roof I went up and had to shovel that as he took all the snow I threw down and blew the yard all over again!

Did I tell you I hate winter and do you know those of us 55 and old are 4 times more likely to have a heart attack.  The place was now safe

but were we?  I hurt in places I never thought I could and that damn thing I wear on my hip to show how much activity I have done after 3 and a half

hours shoveling the roof only said I did hardly ANYTHING for exercise  talk about adding insult to injury.

 

So I am off for weigh in and I am probably up a pound but hey I had to keep my STRENGTH UP

Miss you all but winter has had a grip on me

 

More photos today when I come back as I am sending him to the beach alone so I can eat candy and visit ALL YOUR BLOGS

 

XO

Eunice

After My Son Was Gone

After I had my son there was no reason for me to stay in the hospital.  He was healthy and beautiful and nurses,  bless them,  kept bringing him in only to say OOPS, sorry, do you want to hold him?  I asked the doctor if I could get discharged,  he understood and said it would be OK,  good thing as I was going anyway.  I had things to do.

 

It was mid February and there had been snow. Mom came to get me as I had stayed the last 2 months at home and my car was there.  I was in a hurry to find an apartment.  I needed to get out of the family home,  no reason to cause them more pain seeing me each and every day in pain and tears.

 

I worked at  the factory where I had been for three years.  They had taken up a collection for me but I gave it all back except for some cash for new clothes.  I also took a job at a local gas station and worked 8 hours at both jobs.  I had to stay busy.  One of the young guys who worked at the station with me was looking to move so we found an apartment with 2 bedrooms and he worked days at the station and me nights.  I would come home at 11:30 PM and supper would be wrapped up in oven on warm.  It was perfect.  I left the station we worked at together and moved a half mile further down and worked for another station so I could do oil changes and brakes, more money.

For a year and a half  I did some heavy drinking on Sunday nights,  at a club out of town or at a friend’s house.  Loud rock music, draft beer I thought would help me get over him being gone,  it didn’t.  Friends,  mostly men and their girlfriends never said a word to me when I had come home without him.  Not sure how they felt but they knew a part of me had changed and pretty much died.

So after working sixteen hours a day and going out on Sunday nights for ten-cent drafts  I met a man.  He was 10 years older and a trucker.

He was divorced with visitation for the little boy they shared.  I am not saying that is why I dated him but in the end I am sure it is why, for a small, very small part for the reason I stayed over and over.

So just a year and half after kissing my baby goodbye I meet this man with a son.  He often tried to get visitation but the two of them him and his ex always fought usually over a lousy thirty-five dollar a week support check and she was already married to a bank president.  I saw this as crazy,  what was right was right. Share as the courts ordered it.  So I was the go between,  driving down to pick him up this cute little four-year old boy.  Him and I had a blast while he was  with me till his father got out of work and picked him up.  He had ben trying to buy a home, and get back on his feet it had been two years since they had divorced.  She had five children from her first husband .  I made assumptions I would later realize were wrong and it could have cost me my life in the end.

 

So I dated  him on and off for three years.  Off because there was a lot of abuse.  I would walk out and move he would promise never again and I wanted to believe him, I wanted to be loved.  Not liked, loved.

After three rough years with some good fun and some very horrible days  he asked me to marry him.  I said no. He begged me to give him a chance and that he would never hit or kick me again.  I looked in his eyes and saw tears and thought he was being truthful.  I said yes alter knowing him for more than 3 years but less than four.  The night we went to get married he was in tears,  not me.

I know I was younger by ten years and I worked with lots of men.  I was going to driving school for big rigs too, so I could run a rig with him.  He was drinking more and more,  no I am not making an excuse just stating a fact.  He was changing and I was newly married.  I was not married three weeks when he beat me so bad I walked a local highway for twenty-five miles, hours walking and crying. I had a few truckers pull over to ask if I was OK and if I needed a ride.  I was a young blonde girl , in tears and they may have been nice but I kept walking.  No cell phones back then and when I got to an exit Mom is who I called.  Poor Mom grand baby gone, daughter bloody and bruised, but who else could I call?

Mom brought me home to their home and I washed up.   I had left our home and everything I owned behind.  Mom asked what he did after he was done beating me and I told her he had left for the road.  She drove me to a local Ford dealer who made me another key for my pick up I had left behind, he had the keys, and she took me up to get my things and truck.  Dad changed my ignition and the man I used to babysit for had a steering wheel tool, The Club he gave me as he would be able to get the door open.  I actually never thought I would see my husband again but sadly it was not the end of it.

 

I was out front of my parents home with my aunt and he came racing up to the house and before I knew what had happened he had my by my hair trying to drag me to his car.  My Mom and Aunt screamed at him to leave me alone and to leave before the police were called.  Why was no one on the phone already?   He finally took off when he saw I was not going willingly.

Again I stayed back home found a new job this time driving a truck by myself.  I was loving life.  Yes married but no word from him.

I went out Friday night with friends after two weeks on the job and a pay check for  two beers.  We were listening to a great band when up walks my husband and again grabs me by the hair and proceeds to drag me through a club and out the door,  no one stopping him.  Once outside one of my friends pushed him and he fell,  we were sober he was not.  Police were called but so was he by then.

 

It was nine months later when he waits at the top of my parents roads and waits to see me pull in.  He gets out and I yell for Mom to call the police.  This is crazy, she cares what the neighbors think.  Me I just want to live.

 

He comes up and says he is  sorry,  as I walk backwards he begged me to listen.  He said he was so sorry.  He also proceeds to tell me he has not touched a drop of alcohol  since the last time he saw me to which I jump in and say ” You mean when you dragged me by the hair out of a local club?”  He swore things would be different.  He swore he loved me.  Yes you know what I did,  I went back.  We were good for 6 months and he started having a  beer or two.

 

Now all this time apart you would think I was getting stronger but no just the opposite I was lost after I placed my baby for adoption wanting to be loved I kept believing  him and when he would tell me no one else would ever want me or love me I eventually believed this as well.

 

We had some nice days together but really more bad than good.  I stayed another 10 years in this odd marriage of a sad lady and a drunk man.  It is a recipe for disaster.  We had his son living full-time for maybe five years of our marriage and he was also physically and verbally as well as emotionally abused.   One night after his Dad was horrible to him he picked up the phone no not to call the police but to call his brother and he moved out.

 

We had two rigs I drove one him the other.   I drove local and he was on the road.  I had peace till he arrived home.

 

I met him in the end of 1978 and in May of 1995 I called the police on him for the very first time.  He had held a loaded gun to my head and told me I smelled to good to have been in a rig all day. I asked him to put the dogs out before he killed me so they would not see me like that.  He lowered the 44 cal. pistol   and poured himself another drink.  He had made it up to almost two fifths of Canadian Club on a drinking day.  When he passed out I hid the gun.  I told him he was to LEAVE NOW and to GET OUT.  I   called the police and they escorted him from the home.  I went the next day and got a retraining order on him.  A year later the judge told him to watch me leave the court room,  as I was the best thing he ever had in his life and he had destroyed me as well.

When I received my divorce decree,  I was given a permanent restraining order  against him.  Funny I guess no one read his to him.  A year to the day he showed up here wanting to say Hi.  I yelled from the door ” I’m calling the police!  ”  he walked out of the yard and I have never laid eyes on him again.  I also gave him all the so-called friends and I set about rebuilding my life.  Working hard,  giving love another chance to ending that after  eight years, on my terms.  It was time to make my life for me and a few years  after being alone,  the one man I always loved walked back into my life.  I am so blessed.

 

I now know why I made it.  I had Angels watching over me through all the beatings and the insanity of me sticking it out , till a gun was pulled.    I am strong.  I made it when so many lost their lives loving the wrong person,  better yet not loving themselves.  I now know I stopped loving me the day I signed on that bottom line letting my baby go to a home where I would not be. I knew what I did for that couple  with no baby of their own was good but I hated myself that day so why would anyone ever love me, really love me.

 

So now that my son and I have found each other and he knows I always loved him and he loves me I can finally let go of the pain of loss and begin to live  again.

I am working on  accepting the fact that I  deserve happiness though  it doesn’t come easy for me.  Funny how it all comes together after a 32 year detour  but it has and I am so very  happy to share my world with the love of my life and my son and my two cute pets and all of you.

 

I am so blessed.

 

WISE OLD PINE

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Wise Old Pine

You know I love this one

Imagine the stories it could tell

Who has found their way to sit on a table under its outstretched branches

How many others thought it was worthy of a few photos

I have been here at the lake many times both in a boat and walking in the woods

This day I was there to see how much water was to be let out so I could prepare for the

flooding that would take place at home when they did and as I walked the different areas of

the shoreline I caught  sight of this tree through the others

Holding on tight to anything it can grab

Trees amaze me

The power they hold it is what I am after

The ability to hold on

Stay strong

Stand Tall

Reaching out with  my roots

Finding BALANCE

No matter the storms I brace myself for

I may adore the colors of Maples in the fall

The Willow in my yard

Pines such as this with so many stories

It continues to cling to the rocks, soil, earth

It is busted and broken but still here

Trees inspire me to keep on keeping on

Blues and Greens

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No matter the weather

Sun or Clouds

I love this place so much

Wave after wave

Right on the heels of another

Crashing

Curling

Spraying water  all around

I guess maybe I am drawn to the sea for her POWER

As it is so plain to see

Waves roll onto the shore after making their display

I really could just sit here with the camera

The dog too

All day

Photo after photo,  all the same but really just a little different

Can you see

How I love the Sea

 

The Full Moon Is Coming

The article below is not written by me but I wanted you all to read it and let it soak deep within you who are moved by our Sun and Moon and the Earth we share.  With what I have been going through and what I am soon to take on as a challenge to myself in order to heal and be the best I can be I do feel hope.  So many in pain now, so much loss around this world of ours we all need to live in Peace and Harmony we really do.  We need to be good to our Earth for it is all we have.  Some will think it is silly but really give it a chance read slowly take it in it can not hurt you.

Then go out and look to the sky and watch as this event happens feel the power and let it move you to be your best.  You all know I love sunrises and sunsets for their beauty and the proof I made it another day as did you.

Enjoy the Moon in all her beauty my wish is for all of us to have a clear enough sky to watch the show

Love to all of you now here is what I copy and pasted down below:

 

 

The full moon with a lunar eclipse is Wednesday, November 28 at 7:46 AM MST (Mountain Standard Time). This is a very potent moon and the eclipse is a marker for deep change. Celebrate. Do something higher centered and involving art or music or nature or love. Engage in physical life fully and appreciate every moment. This is a good moon to pray for what you want. There is a window of manifesting something of the heart, something new you never thought you could have.

This moon launches the final stretch of preparation for a new cycle to begin. Between now and the winter solstice on December 21 is a crucial time of letting go, revisiting priorities, separating yourself from what is not in your best interest, and reaching for a higher vibration in all things. Think of this time as the final exams before graduating from whatever group of lessons we agreed to as represented in the current cycle.

The new cycle will be like starting a new school; a lot of unknowns and some degree of excitement, anxiety and uncertainty as well as a commitment to do your best. Meet it with enthusiasm and openness instead of fear. And be as prepared as possible.

Blessings,

Lena

ASTROLOGICAL NOTES:
Written by Patricia Liles
Contact her at PATLILES@aol.com

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse    
Sun in Sagittarius ~ Moon in Gemini 6º
Wed. Nov 28 2012 7:46 AM MST (2:46 PM GMT)

We’re all being challenged.  We’re all being supported.  We’re all letting go of the old way.  We’re all reaching toward the new.  All systems reset during the weeks of eclipse energy between the New and the Full Moon alignments of the Sun, Moon, and Earth – our Creator, our Receiver, and our Home making us more malleable and open to the gifts made available to us now.  How willing are you to relax your grip on the baggage you’re carrying and lift your open hands to the sky?  Surrender and Receiving could be the big themes of duality-loving Gemini’s Full Moon energy.  Gemini/Sagittarius carry strong mental focus.  Gemini loves communicating, connecting, informing, and Sagittarius wants expansion of our horizons and beliefs through exposure to foreign influences, religious ideas, and seeking of wisdom.  Teaching and learning are emphasized here.  Mercury rules this Moon chart and has been retrograde for weeks drawing us inward and insisting we follow the mental roots deep into our core and draw up those experiences that expose the basis of the way we think.  Mercury turning direct on Nov. 26 and moving forward will continue to facilitate those mental level transformations that support our global shift.  Look down, is your ticket marked ‘deep intense personal transformation’?  I thought so.  Well, you’re in the right place at the right time.

Many of the planets are joining up into big patterns to strengthen their message and pressure for growth.  Mars has met up with Pluto at 8º Capricorn; Mars says, ‘lets see what adding a little heat, anger, and action will add to moving this planet along into the next level of consciousness.’  Last week held some pretty spicy moments as Mars stripped the lids off more than one smoldering pot.  Neptune is forming a T-Square with the Sun/Moon so it can be a little slippery which reality we want to be in.  We can still operate like our ‘old’ selves, but there’s an ever stronger, powerful pull toward what we are becoming.  The web of interconnected life is becoming ever more obvious and tangible.

Venus is briefly together with Saturn in Scorpio, so issues of relationship negotiation, finances, and ingrained self-esteem patterns are big areas for lessons to manifest.  However, Saturn is involved with something bigger – a Thor’s Hammer configuration that I’m becoming more sensitive to because they are appearing more and more frequently in the recent Moon charts.  Considered a stressful, dynamic formation, it wields a tremendous amount of power and clout.  It can either throw you completely off-balance or put a powerful tool in your hands that you will have to direct with your Full attention.  Pallas Athena, our creative intelligence and connection to our sense of social justice and energetic healing arts, is joining Vesta, our keeper of inner spiritual knowledge.  The two of them are creating this ‘hammer’ with Saturn to focus and direct their sublimated sexual energies for transformation and rebirth.

Venus, at the same time, at 8º Scorpio, is forming a Finger of God involving the over-heated, Mars/Pluto combo and the eclipsing Full Moon.  A Finger of God or Yod acts like a catalyst and with the Moon in Gemini as focal point we may feel emotionally inspired, quickened and connected or nervous and a little too jittery to enjoy the moment and all the trans-formative energy available here.  But again, it will emphasize those Venusian areas of ‘relationship negotiation, finances, and ingrained self-esteem patterns’.  And with a Finger of God, what comes up may or may not be your issue, but you can act as a vehicle for triggering others around you catching their anger ball.

In the background, we still have strong harmonious support from all the water signs joined in a Grand Trine providing us with the emotional receptivity and soothing support we desperately need in these highly transformative times.

When you see so many formations in a chart, with both stressful and supportive overtones, it conveys the feeling that something bigger than the personal is unfolding directed by the order of the universe.

As we rise up to meet this new level of consciousness and evolve our ancestral patterning, we are offered tremendous support for our courage to burst through the secure and familiar and step into the jelly-like energy where so much creativity exists.   (Comfortable, no-exhilarating, yes!) With the simultaneous closing of so many megacycles and calendars – Hindu, Hopi, Mayan, etc., this magnificent energy comes through each of us personally while the larger, collective dynamic evolution unmistakably takes place.

Ceres, largest of the asteroids and recently promoted to a dwarf planet, embodies the energy of the Great Mother.  Her nourishing, life and death cycle influence has an interesting role in this Full Moon chart as she is the missing link that creates both the Grand Trine of emotional support with the water signs and simultaneously forms a powerful on-going, T-Square (that we will see again in April) with the volatile Mars/Pluto and Uranus square.  As these two heavies are the real sources of planetary evolution operating now, and Ceres is activating them in T-Square, let’s ask ourselves, ‘how would Mother Nature direct our planetary evolution?’

Here’s how the Dali Lama replied when asked in a public appearance why he didn’t fight back against the Chinese.

“Well, war is obsolete, you know.” Then he paused and said, “Of course the mind can rationalize fighting back… but the heart, the heart would never understand.  Then you would be divided in yourself, the heart and the mind, and the war would be inside you.”

The penumbral eclipse of the Moon is visible in Europe, eastern Africa, Asia, Australia, the Pacific Ocean and most of North America.

12/13 New Moon in Sagittarius 1:41 AM MST and big meteor shower,      the Geminids

12/21 Winter Solstice, Sun enters Capricorn 4:11 AM MDT

12/28 Full Moon in Cancer 3:21 AM MST

Written by Patricia Liles.  Contact her at PATLILES@aol.com

Good Morning

Just want to pop in before the week gets crazy for all of you baking and cooking up a storm or running off to catch a plane.  I wanted to thank each and every one of you for following and or liking my space here with you.  This is a  wonderful time of the year. A time to give THANKS for all we have.  Times are really tough not only here in the US but sadly around this world.  I pray daily for this world to live in Peace and Harmony.

I hope you will make memories here in the states with your family and friends.  That you travel safely to and from your homes.

You see it  is coming upon the day my life changed with one rear-end collision.

I had spent Thanksgiving at my parents home with my brother and his family also attending.  We left early as I had to drive a dump truck the following day/  A girl has to work you know.  So I did I trucked probably 13 loads that day for the boss and then met up with my boyfriend at the time and his boss.  They asked if I wanted to go to the Casino.  I really did not want to go I had been driving all day in heavy equipment which can beat you up pretty badly.  Seems they had discussed going for a few hours long before I showed up.  Men!  Well neither of them had rights to drive a car so in the end I said I would go for a few hours, two-hour trip down maybe five hours there figuring that would be enough time for them to lose all their cash, me I love games of chance but work so hard for my money and am so responsible that I take just $50.  This night we left at 8:00 PM from his boss’s home and headed south to CT.  We were going to Foxwoods.    We made good time as there really was no traffic due to it being a holiday weekend.  I went in with them and watched for a little while then I placed $20 into a One Armed Bandit machine,  SLOTS  I like the lights flashing and the sounds that come from them but not how they suck you into feeding them more and more hard-earned money.  So I played that $20 for all she was worth till it was gone then told the men I was going to get some sleep out in our conversion van.  I slept till his boss who was also tired wanted in to sleep as well.  I fell back to sleep till about 4 AM and wanted to head north so I went in search of the boyfriend.  I found him glued to a Poker Machine and I said we wanted to head home.  He answered “but I’m up $500!”  I laughed and said “good as we could use the extra cash for heating and Christmas”.  Not happy but not having a license he had no choice but to cash out and make his way with me home.  The dogs would need to go out by the time we got back.  We had 3 of them.

Now we are all in the van and getting ready to leave the parking area and I  make plans to go to the coffee shop a DD at the next light.  While sitting in our new van at a Red light we were rear-ended by a Casino Tour Bus doing 35 mph or more.  I went unconscious upon impact his boss’s eardrum blew as he was laying down on back bench seat and boyfriend was pinned for a moment in the passenger side.  No air bags deployed who knew they did not when you are hit from behind.  Every seat that was being used by us snapped upon impact.  No none of us had seat belts on as we were just going into a local coffee shop for a cup for the ride home.  I would have broken left leg and two thigh bones had I k=not been thrown to the rear of the van.  My left calf is still HUGE after 12 years.  Knee is still torn to pieces not to say a thing about my back.  The two of them who stayed in their seats healed over time but I am left with injuries and memories of a night just the day after showing many thanks.

It was 4 years later the doctors sat me down and said I would probably never drive a Big Rig again and on my Birthday.  Such a very sad day for me. I tear up still with just going back to that day.

 

So now 12 years later I am alive and very thankful to be. So many things in my life would be so different had that accident not occurred I know that now but it was still a long 12 years.

So really pay attention while out there not only to your driving but put down the phone and pay attention my parents almost lost me that day and it was the bus driver on the phone.

 

No pretty photo for this post as there really was none.

I have made up for it this past 6 months with all of you.  Thanks for being there when I needed you the most.

XO

Eunice

Many Find Peace Here

Atlantic Ocean

Peace

I love Sunrises and Sunsets the start of a new day and the end of one even if the day did not go so well the sky is lit up and allows me to find peace.

Peaceful

Peace Within

I have been on a  journey looking for peace and happiness.  Each day I get more of the old me back.  Each day I laugh and smile more.

Things like the two photos shown above have been out there in the world for a very long time it seems I am just more open to see them.

I love that this shows I have turned a corner.  I am here now not back then. I am finally LIVING.

nutsfortreasure:

A challenge from over at 20 lines A Day what would you tell YOURSELF?

Originally posted on 20 Lines A Day:

Dear Eunice @16

Listen to your Mother.  She really does know what is best.  She wants to save you years of pain.

You are a good girl.  You are so talented. Always remember  you can be anything you want to be.

Believe in yourself and never ever let anyone hurt you.  You are stubborn so I know you will not listen

but I want your life to be whole once again and not filled with so much sadness.  Love yourself .

Love @ Peace

Eunice @ 56

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Home

last year

Last year the backyard was nice but just not PERFECT.  This year

for me has been so much better from the start!

The Spider plant has more than tripled in size, to the point

she no longer can hang , well not unless I use a CHAIN.  The lawn

with just enough rain is so green, and soft to walk on.  I never water the

lawn or plants  that are not in pots(those get watered  each day or every other)

the perennials also do not get extra water.  I grow plants raised here for the range of temps and

four different seasons. They for the most part are tough survivors, like us.

The storms have taken our pretty little spot for shade and

tore it apart not once but twice.   My boyfriend was a welder for years and with

welding rods and some DUCK TAPE we have gotten another year

of it.  Thankfully as this is where I doing beading outside as well as wire wrapping

all the while playing with JT and taking photos of back yard visitors who do not mind us

sitting out there.

Next year I have a lot plans for this place we call home.

There will be many  plants grown from seed this winter, for plants to go into

a new English Garden as well as all plants that will feed us,  throughout the year.

I was given glass from an old greenhouse a friend had no use for and boyfriend will build

me a greenhouse  to move them out  into even it there is snow still on the ground.  The sun is

amazing on this piece of land from sunrise through sunset. We have a windmill and 1 solar panel

so far to help with filling the needs for electricity even if it is for a small FREE amount for now we

can build on it little by little.

I will try to leave enough room in the greenhouse to grow some pretty plants for the garden club

here in town I am secretary of.  Hangers ready for Mother’s Day plant sale would be so nice to work towards.

I have to say this time last year I hurt so bad and emotionally hurt more, on most days but just a year later

so much has changed.  All it took was me putting one foot in front of the other and doing just one day at a time.

HUGE SPIDER PLANT

HUGE

In Port

 

Pretty boats  all in a row

 

 

Tucked here and there on their moorings .

 

 

Such a beautiful day to be worried about rain or do they want  privacy?

 

 

Laying wait for their owners to take then out,  on the open water.

 

 

Pirates? I want to be on this one!

 

 

Can’t wait to take her for a boat ride!

 

 

I love finding punches of  COLOR!

 

 

Sailors have always lived a Colorful life

which I have always seen as ROMANTIC.

 

I know it is hard work keeping their boats

clean,fueled up and running good.  The men who fish here

for a living in (MA,USA) are a strong bunch.

Looking for fish, getting what they are worth, fighting storms, loosing traps.

I love fish and appreciate all the hard work , as well as the sacrifices, for us to have a wonderful fish dinner.

 

 

Keep up the good work!

Image

As he searched for treasure in and around the boulders and gravel I found GOLD in a

friendship with Marie.

There may have been 3 vehicles parked in the shade along this stretch of route 112

but the woman in both made their way over to say hello and to say h to JT.

This part of the story will focus on Marie.  She said she was from MA in an area I used to go to once a

day, in my Big Rig.

I was siting in a chair throwing sticks or a frisbee to JT and told her about my back and she said she

knew my pain.

In fact today was the first time she had left the home with her husband for fun in 8 years.  She had been

hurt in an accident at work, boy could we relate.

We talked and talked and tears flowed from both of us.

We knew each others pain.

She saw me as strong . It was not till we spoke she knew I too, had been broken.

She has to go through exactly what I had gone through for 10 years.  Marie was  now

into her 8th  year of hell.   I told her to hang on it would soon be over.

It is what they do to hard workers who get hurt and go after them for damages.

They want us to give up and God knows I came close more than once.

She has to fight for disability.  I told her how.  I asked her to please just not to give up.

After hugging her and telling her it would be OK my mate saw us crying and said

“Do you know each other?” he was smiling as this happens so much he is used to it.

Marie told him I was so special and he smiled again and said he knew.  He also told her

this happens to me a lot now that  I have started to really LIVE my life again.  I am glad

it is with him.

So I let Marie know how to reach me.  I do not know if she will  but one thing I am sure of

is the fact she left that river’s edge a little stronger inside.  She needed to meet someone who had gone

through the pain and depression and had come out the other side.  Yes battered and bruised but no

longer busted and broken.   I refused the drugs finally and am finally Living and Lovin (the name of my

BLOG,lol)

For all of you fighting the fight please do fight for your life.  It is worth it.

Peace & Love

Determination

Determination

So Loved.

February

SOON

Feb 1 will feel like this!

Get out and enjoy the day!
New England will be blessed with warmer temps.  I can hear the HD”s now!

Will be making something pretty, seeing my Mom and a dear friend who tied the knot
on Jan. 1st.

I saw my Adopted Mom yesterday to wish her Happy Birthday with Pink Tulips and a pretty card and  she had 15 frames for me to start the next leg of my journey, putting myself into some shows and shops.  I will clean them up distress some, paint and embellish others.  This will be FUN!

So thankful to be HERE  took awhile after all I have gone through but I AM BACK!

more later or maybe I will tall you a story, we will see, have a great day out there doing what you enjoy!

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