I have been with my mom a few days and my brother who live in the south came up to see her as well. She mad it to see her 81st birthday yesterday surround by her family.
Try as she might the cancer has grown to such a size she can not swallow and keep it down. How long can someone live this way? I hope she speaks to hospice if not for herself but for those of us who feel so helpless.
This is so hard to watch and I know so many of you have been through this as well and bless you if tried with all your might to make your loved one comfortable. I will be with her God willing next weekend and then the following one she will watch her granddaughter wed. It is what has been keeping her going.
This will be moms last year so seeing summer end it will have at least left us with beautiful colors.Take care everyone.
Mom is off chemo as it was making her too sick. My youngest brother and his wife are doing all they can to keep her safe. We will get together on Sunday to watch Tom return to the football field and we will dine on lasagna, made fresh by my brother with hopes mom will eat like our last visit. So hard as we age and no longer care or have the need for eating. You find it hard to sit by, doing nothing. There is nothing human about suffering when your body is under attack. I continue to pray for her to feel no pain and to close her eyes one night and leave us peacefully but you all know the suffering most bodies are put through and I worry sick about her though I continue to put on a smile as she needs to be no sadder than she already is.
I had to go and unwind and that has always been on the road, so with dog water packed and batteries charged for all the cameras off we went across the lower half of NH and into VT.
Lots of pockets of amazing color kept my mind busy. We are supposed to enjoy each of our four seasons though all of you know winter is not my thing.
I am getting cards printed for 2 Holiday Craft Fairs I will set-up for. They will be of images that will make winter cards. I will sell some original watercolors, I have sold 4 this month already. I have a roof to re-shingle so I hope the sales continue. I will also offer some baby items(crocheted) I will also try to make my table as pretty as I can for the holiday fair. I did not want to do these shows but mom reminds me I need to live and get my name out there. So for her I will keep plugging away.
I had so much fun selling in Dover NH with a pop up gallery Myrtle Street Gallery
in downtown Dover NH in front of The Chop House!
I also showed my Watercolors off and made more sales in Maine at a Yard Sale and since most shop for Antiques there it felt good.
Mom is hanging in there but hate that her days are numbered I guess all of us are going to be there sooner or later I am just praying she will not suffer horribly.
Happy September to all of you who were wanting cooler temps. For you who will just be receiving summer I hope it was a nice as mine was.
Fall colors will fill my world then dreadful snow.
The season will end soon enough for these beauties as the drought has been rough on the land and my well.
Mom started Chemo yesterday so far so good but I am just trying to keep the faith.
I was invited to show my Watercolors last Wednesday in Dover NH and will again this Wednesday evening from 6 to 9 p.m. Myrtle Street Gallery on the sidewalk outside of the Chop House come by if you are in the area. Mine is a starving artist sale very inexpensive art so I can continue to paint.
My town celebrated it’s 275th Birthday with a day long celebration so much fun after working on committee for almost 2 years.
We even ended the night with our very own Fireworks show.
I am joining a friend on Tuesday and we will paint our dogs well I should say attempt to results here if it looks something like JT.
Hope you are all doing OK I will see if I can find you on my WP Reader.
You would never know we are in a severe drought here in New England. My garden is lush and producing easily 20 pounds a day of food perfect when you have no money for the finer things in life, others take for granted.
I have stayed at home to tend to me and the fruits of my labor. This totally organic all non GMO and mostly heirloom garden of mine. With so much sun damage, skin cancer I bought my very first pair of sunglasses and a floppy hat. I go into the garden early and late in the day with my girl and her toy. She rests while I pick and after rinsing them it is her time to play. Friends say she needs her own Facebook page 🙂 I think a chapter in my memoir will be enough as you all know her.
I received really bad news last week, that after the 2 year battle to get mom back up and walking on her own she has been kicked down bad with hearing she has cancer. She had the tests every 6 months on her esophagus but had always aced them. This time the news was bad, it is elsewhere. She now has it in her liver as well. She is terminal. She is trying to hold on to attend her granddaughter’s wedding in November I say move the date up and let my mom go peacefully, but hey who am I. I am angry after her fighting so hard to go back home with her cat that this is how the story will end, sad about her being scared but putting in another 6 to 9 rounds in this ring of life. We made a big deal last Oct. on her 80th birthday as she made it, to now being doubtful for a 81st. Life is not easy we all know this don’t we but not fair as well. I will see her tonight and try to speak of old times, fun things and bring soft, yummy stuff, to eat. Hope she loves Ratatouille and cheesecake.
I have some amazing tomatoes as they are her favorite and at this point there is no reason to avoid any food I want her to delight in their amazing flavor while she can still taste.
I have been inside on hot days crocheting with maybe only two days where I painted but not because I do not want to but because our town is celebrating our 257th birthday and I will be adding a table at the craft fair. I will have a couple of fused glass bracelets, some Watercolors and baby hats and booties for sale. My heart was in it before mom’s news but now not so much. Push forward and carry on as I gave my word I would take a spot of a now sold out show. I have all kinds of hats and booties to complete and then package them for next Saturday. After the 20th, everything the all volunteer committee I have been on for two years, will be behind us. We will have a parade, craft fair, fun and games for the children and fireworks to complete the celebration. I pray I am around to see what the younger folks do on her 300th.
I hope you are all doing ok. I hope for those in the US you have not gone crazy over the presidential race. We have to know by now what little difference will either make. My wish is to kick everyone out of Congress/Senate, strip them of their monthly stipend for life and get new blood in, allow them 2 years at a time do something or they are gone. No carrying the financial burden our country does for those who care so little for their country and those of us who reside here. Yes I never speak of the crap out there but I am paying attention.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Please be kind to one another.
Another day in the garden with my friends helping me with bug patrol. Who needs poison when you have gorgeous dragons patrolling for you. 🙂
Here was yesterday’s haul just before the glorious rains began to fall and man did it rain and blow, some are still without power and will not have trees cut and cleared or wires back up till maybe Monday afternoon when another batch will come through. Growing up I do not remember violent weather but in 60 years my has the world changed.
I have been living on Ratatouille
even for breakfast with a poached egg on top. This was a supper for him he needs meat he said lol
We are still in a drought but not like other parts of the US or world. For now I get enough to eat though hardly any Apples, Pears, Peaches and Plums can be found since we had such a cold snap when they needed warmth and bees the most.
Hope you are all doing OK. I will go through my reader and see if your posts show up.
Have a great week!
Goodnight from us all here in NH
The garden measures about 16′ X 24′ I have flowers mingled inside with all the veggies as well. Bring the birds, bees, dragonflies and butterflies to eat the bugs and pollinate was my plan.
I forage for greens each morning with my coffee and JT she is never far from me. I go back out again to get things for my dinner though I better start adding chicken or eggs to my salad or I will loose all my muscles, which I will need come the end of the season, to put this place to bed.
Radishes, Summer Squash, Zucchini and Sugar Snap Peas with Raspberries were my fixings that went in with my Rainbow Swiss Chard and Spinach Salad. We are in a drought here but that soil I bought is amazing just the perfect amount of compost makes all the difference. It is light and fluffy still. I wish I had grown one of everything. I have beets, carrots, string beans,corn and spaghetti squash yet to show up but they are growing like mad.
Always have extra help when I go inside the gate.
I have been painting a bit too, here is one of the last three I have been working on.
We got heavy rain for a bit tonight it was glorious and the earth soaked it right up.
Hope you are all having a wonderful and safe week, this world we live in is going crazy so glad I have these things to keep me away from TV and more bad news. Pray for Peace on our beautiful earth xo
I will now be offering all my Original Watercolors for sale.
They will come unmatted and with no frame for you to finish them just the way you like.
I am not asking what others do for their work because I do not need to.
If you like one enough to purchase I will get it out into the mail asap. I will also offer free shipping within the USA. After a few pieces get shipped Internationally I will get a better idea on what costs are. If you have an Etsy store let me know so I can follow you.
I set it up last night and just have to pieces there but I will add all others in time. They are pieces of me I hate to keep in a dark bag never seeing the light of day. I love creating so the store will be tough as all my others I have do everything for you. Prints from Original Artwork will be available at my other shops but this one is for Signed Originals. I may if time permits sell a few baby items there as well as custom jewelry but that will be once the Watercolors are uploaded onto the site. Thanks for always cheering me on you are such a great support group.
Hi there how are you all? I have been very busy with doing marketing for the local art gallery and putting in my wonderful garden. JT and I play outside a lot as we watch it grow. We are in a drought after really no winter or not compared the the one before and very few days of a good soaking rain. So thankfully I have a well and lots of patience and faith.
My first cucumber and radishes are ready to eat as well as spinach and rainbow swiss chard.
Tomatoes are appearing and the corn is indeed knee high even before The 4th of July!
I entered my photo of a heart, as it appeared overhead maybe a year or 2 ago, to the Theme Show “Sky Images” maybe here in New England the one of the great white one would have gone over better but seeing the world as a much crazy place these days I titled my heart “What the world needs now” hope they GET IT.
From the BEFORE above to
To mid June growing nicely.
I had to get away from all the work here for a day so we took off in early afternoon for me to see how wild things grow.
The temps will soar today to 80 so getting out quickly to make the remaining boxes to be added to my garden so when I shop at Friday and Sat. plant sales I will have a place to add all my beauties.
Do you grow your own food? I am so excited it has been three long years since we tilled the earth and dropped in a seed yes being organic is harder but what is the point of eating things not good for you.
I have spinach to go in as well as lettuce and swiss chard that are a month late along with peas due to all the frosts and freezes we had. I will not complain about working out with black flies to get it in now as so many places right now have it so bad with our world’s weather.
After the work is complete today I will try to scrub my filthy hands and pop into the Seacoast Artist Association for a class Doris Rice is having on spring blossoms as the sit on branches. I will take a Forsythia branch as well as a branch section with just opening Apple Blossoms on it and maybe a Lilac too, it should be fun last week it was beach with small shoreline birds. I do love Watercolor and I will sleep like a baby after working hard all day with my boyfriend and then painting always drains me but in a good way.
Stay safe out there and find something you love doing and make time for YOU I love this new me 🙂
Our area went from warm and wonderful to rainy and raw day after day but with Alberta CA sections burning up as well as other places here and abroad I have very little really to complain about.
This is my Bleeding Heart that sits facing the east in my yard wonder if she would like just a tad more light. 🙂 I know I would
I have still been at it with Watercolors but not at such a breakneck speed now I think and mix color with clear intent and try to catch a couple of lessons a month but with art gallery having their grand opening and a few shows I entered in their Theme Show format I am doing a little more photography infact joined a meetup group right above studio to join in on some challenges as it is a low key group that seems willing to share ideas on sharing your shot in a better light as well as places to meet up and shoot like they just had a meetup at a Steampunk gathering. I have not done any of that yet but just entered my 3 shots for this month “Body Parts” I will not bore you with photos but will tell you I had one of my bare foot in the freshly tilled soil of my organic garden yes my feet were clean but frozen by the time I was done working, JT my Border Collie most of you know from photos and stories of course had a spot this time a close of her beautiful eye how I love this dog now turning a year older today I swear I do not know where the time went. The third shot I took was of my boyfriends 1950’s truck then I did some wild processing on photo just so they would be all different and not boring like my Birthday ride oceans scenes I shared with them last month for “Power” has the sea has a hold on me, that lighthouse will be above where my ashes are spread and the force of a wave is anything but weak but you know where my head is at most days.
I will try to get more photography printed and hung in local shows and online they sell well enough to pay for my painting supplies so others must like the plain simple beauty of what is.
Hope you are all doing OK I am off to read some of your blogs have a wonderful week!
OH I forgot I took a night with a friend and tried Acrylic photo latter
I had a wonderful 60th birthday and then it was time to turn the clocks ahead one hour. Getting older and losing an hours sleep in one week has me tired but so excited for spring! We will look back on this past winter and ask where winter went, a far cry from New England last year, this one was more to my liking 🙂
Here are a few shots from my world in recent days. Having trouble with uploading images I will try some single posts or put them on my Folsom Mill Studio blog
I added 2 framed pieces of Watercolor to the Theme Wall at Seacoast Artist Association. This month’s theme is Wild With Color. Now I could have framed some of my amazing Sunrises even Sunsets or Pink Peonies. Maybe my popular monster Sunflowers even but I chose two of my colorful landscapes filled with tree trunks with pretty bark 🙂
No longer laid out against my red countertops but are in pretty rich brown frames under glass. I will miss them if they sell but even looking at them here as I type I can see I have grown much like a tree 🙂 ever changing and it make me so happy.
Still not comfortable with others judging me or my artwork but I can not sell it if I do not put myself out there 🙂
My town is celebrating it’s 275th birthday and the committee group is trying to raise monies for a parade and fireworks so I donated one of my framed pieces as a raffle gift hope enough like it to raise $40 or $50 for my part of the cause. All starving artists have is what they create.
I did straighten out the title lol
Mom is doing great I have more good days and the pup my sweet little girl rests more and loves the pumpkin cookies I make for her 🙂 Going grain free myself and hoping her and I will be back at our fighting weight 🙂
Do you know I did not climb up once on the roof and only raked it once shhh it is only March and I will finally turn 60 I can not believe it myself lol there were many close calls and still not gray!
Here is what I did the other day thinking of taking my girl for a walk to go find some 🙂
Still wet as I posted it to Facebook and it sold 🙂 now I can do an oil change 🙂
Have a great March everyone soon I will share photos from the Boston Flower Show which opens in 2 weeks!
Wow what a difference a year makes and in so many ways!
There is very little snow on the ground yes I know it can still just be a tad late but I personally am through the worst part of winter, with spring arriving in what, just 4 weeks! I am dancing even with sore knees. lol Not so sore I took a shot in each and it helped a lot and will give me time to get my pup cared for and guess what Mom’s surgery on left knee was such a success she is being allowed back home early! Wow see what I mean about being thankful. So many prayers said and great thoughts and energy how could she suffer again. Thanks so much.
Our garden club will attend the Boston Flower Show next month so heads up there maybe flower photos soon lol We are now taking orders for Pansy Bowls at just $15 for a full 12/14″ bowl brimming with pretty little flower faces I can not wait for mine to greet me each day as I arrive home. Maybe I will try to paint them 🙂
Having Mom be in a better place my man doing OK with his pacemaker and my knees not hurting so bad now to get my pup feeling better all will be right in my small world.
Not sure about my reader so many I left a like on today I had not seen forever and ones I usually see were missing 😦 I will keep searching till I find you 🙂
I am going to try to add this video here not sure if the video will work 🙂
Just a moment in my world lol
I made an attempt at getting comfortable at a gallery I belong to and attended a Feb. 14 Art Party where I had a Black and White Pen and Ink / Watercolor hanging as well as Wolf Moon on a special wall our local Watercolor teacher invited her students to show thire piece of winter watercolor. I actually unwound and had fun 🙂
before it got crowded 🙂
I have even been crocheting again
This is for my son’s old girlfriend who got married and is having her first baby. I had so much fun as I had never done any of this type of crocheting before 🙂 yes indeed learning so much than I ever thought I could.
Have a Great Day you can see I have every intent too 🙂
I have added not one but two Watercolors I did to the local Gallery here in Exeter NH that I belong to. Seacoast Artist Association which sits at the end of Swasy Park, downtown.
I have been creating so much art it is crazy but I must not complain as it is good for me to chill with wet paper and my brushes. Working on new website as well in my free time 🙂 http://eunice356.wix.com/artist-painter
Mom had her 5th surgery on her knees yes we have but two so 4 on the right and hopefully the only one just done on her left. I got bad news last week as well seems all the pain in my own knees while caring for her was not just what I was doing I need two knee replacements and I am not 60 for 2 more weeks 😦 Guess I beat the hell out of them jumping out of my rig and with DNA seems it was bound to happen. The dog needs surgery as well so after Mom then her then it will be spring and I will do at least one of mine and heal out in the sun here.
In a few weeks the garden club I am in will attend the Boston Flower Show now if you have been following me for even a little while you know I can not wait though winter so far here in New England has been OK 🙂 some snow and this weekend brutal outside with dangerous windchills but sunny.
I am also hanging a piece of my artwork with other’s who have taken a watercolor class with Doris Rice. She invited us all to add a piece to her feature wall. Mine will be in honor of “Wolf Moon” the full moon we are under as I type. For all of those is the path of our latest winter storm Jonas please stay warm and safe.
I want to wish all of you who celebrate the birth of Christ at this time each year, a very Merry Christmas. To all those who follow another religion may you find Peace On Earth in your daily travels.
Here is what I painted for my Mom, now today in between all the cooking I will try to mat it as well as frame it for her.
What are you doing to celebrate?
Can you believe here in New England we will be enjoying spring and even close to summertime temps. You know each day winter stays away I am a happy lady not having to shovel the roof but reality shall arrive soon I am sure as you have all had some horrible weather to deal with. Stay safe as you gather with loved ones and I will see you in the New Year!
Life is moving too quickly at this time of the year I am already missing the long lazy days of summer and all that lovely light.
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving a very long day for me but so worth my effort. Got up early add the cold sausage stuffing to my cold turkey and place it into the oven to roast while I drove down to my Moms to take here and all of her tools like wheel chair, walker and even the toilet well some stand alone one with legs no good for stairs or sitting on chairs with no arms for leverage I wanted her to feel safe here. so one hour down and one hour back safe and sound. She then made the gravy for us and I did more preparing and readying the place for a small feast.
I invited a friend who is in our garden club with me to join us as well. The dog was so happy to have so many people around the table. The meal came out perfect and we had so much to be thankful for as surly you all did. After all the desert had been tried I loaded her things back into the car for the hour ride back south this time I took the dog to keep me company on the way home. Like I said very long day but so happy she could hang out at my peaceful place one more time as it had been years since her last visit shortly after we lost Dad.
On my way back down to Moms my friend and I finished what she had started for decorations around town while Mom and the dog watched from the car. All lit and off we went.
The world is so scary these days and it makes me that much more grateful for days like we enjoyed. I hope you are all safe in light of the world’s uncertainty. Stay aware of your surroundings as the holy holidays are upon us for there are those who want nothing more to take that from us. Lone wolfs or full fledged attacks no one is safe. I hate war. I hate that countries continue to posture and display might to the detriment of so many others. Taking freedoms from anyone is just not right. Can you imagine if there ever was to be Peace On Earth Goodwill Towards Men.
May you be filled with Joy and wrapped in Love we all deserve that.
I also had over 14 inches of hair cut off so I could donate it to #LocksofLove for a child to receive a wig should they want one. I love my new grown-up hair cut lol
but WP not letting me LIKE your posts but will let me comment odd very odd anyone know what I maybe doing wrong?
Mom is now 80. She made it! We all had had our doubts after this long year of medical woes. We took her out to a wonderful place in Salem NH called the Tuscan Kitchen where we all made wonderful food choices and loved them all. They have more openings happening so if you live near one, pop in! Check them out online too maybe just to drool lol I had a half order of 2 different pasta plates one made with butternut squash the other wild mushrooms I was a very happy girl.
So to catch you up even more with this horrific year of failed surgeries and all we did to keep mom safe, I still have no gray hairs as I approach 60 in March, so in a week I will donate my, now very long hair, to Locks for Love. I will go very drastic with either a Pixie, Bob or Stacked Bob hmmmm maybe a Shag. Out with the old in with the new lol I am excited!
I still paint but not as I once did. I have been busy around here(home) what with my man building a race care for my friend, well just the metal parts within to keep him safe, out on the quarter mile track at over 150 mph. I want to take just one run 🙂
I worked this summer with a few of the Garden club members on our local plantings adding Roses and Ornamental Grasses to each planting so they will be less care in the future. I did very little here but mow since we had dry conditions for most of the growing season.
We did take a ride to see Fall Color in Vermont. It was a 400 mile trip that it took days for us to recover from but I want to see my country again so I better work back up to sitting with bent knees a little more so I do not end up like mom.
Hoping I can catch up on your blogs and leave a like if not I will see if I can leave a comment and even get yours.
Here is a few shots I still have on my computer to share.
Well she came home from a stint in rehab after her fourth surgery on her right knee. It is fused in the straight position which makes it hard to stand up or sitting or getting into bath tub but hey the leg is still there right 🙂
So I was here on Tuesday to watch her walk up her stairs for the first time since January she stepped over the threshold and said “I’m Home!” Big smile on her face the nightmare behind her and now to get strong and heal. So I have moved here to help settle her in and schedule her appointments so once the ball is rolling I can go back home and come down to shop and have a meal with her but for there to be rest so healing happens I will have to be gone as it is too easy to just lean on me and get lazy. It is scary and very painful but I am strong and so she feels she must be as well. She will be 80 in October I think that calls for a huge party 🙂
I am missed I can assure you by all who love me but since they love me they knew I had to try to be there for her after all of the BS that has gone on.
I paint and weed then cook and clean then eat and laugh and talk about the old days and I miss you all and am now finding time to try once again to catch up with you little by little I will.
Mom’s surgery is over today was a day to begin recovery and it was horrible to watch her suffer in horrible pain and me being me I demanded they start caring for my mom as much as I cared for my dog. They got the message and started doing all they could to stop all the break through pain that was gut wrenching to watch as a helpless daughter. So yes big mouths are good 🙂 When my brother went after work tonight he said she was in a better place and enjoying a North End Cannoli yes from the North End of Boston. I can sleep better tonight knowing the insanity will soon be over and she will be sent home where I will do my best 12 to 13 hours a day to see to her needs. Honor thy Mother and Father.
Some good news I got on my way to Boston the two paintings I did and worried about sharing in an art show well the man said the one titled Maine sold today 🙂 show goes till the AUG.1, hope I sell both and they love them hung in their home or office 🙂 The meet and greet is tomorrow night.
Depending on how life goes I will try to keep up here but by phone it just doesn’t work well for me.
It is Saturday morning and time for some coffee and run through my blog roll and to let you know life’s twists and turns are still happening but trying to find silver linings all the same.
Mom’s surgery to fuse her leg will be next Wednesday from what she told me about her meeting with surgeon it will be 3 to 4 hours under sedation as they place a rod from her hip down the leg to her ankle wonder how they will account for the inches in height each year 😦 yes I am always left with these type of questions as it is my brother and sister in law that are handling all of moms affairs. I had no car for 2 years so hard to take her to and from constant appointments.
I had a shocking call as well just before the fourth seems I have not heard from my stepson for 2 years and in that time he was addicted to Heroin. What happened to meting friends for some pizza and beer 😦 the call I received was to let me know he had overdosed and was gone. Just 42. Kind of old I thought for such heavy drug use but seems it is all the rage which yes which has me enraged at societies who do nothing to stop the influx of poison on it’s people sort of as if they have the opposite plan 😦 He was laid to rest two days ago no longer will he suffer with feeling so useless and lost that a drug of this caliber could make him feel whole. RIP Jimmy how I wish you were still a little boy.
I still take photos and paint but with all that has been going on it has become somewhat forced as a way to walk away and chill. I like when it is fun and this has not been a god run on fun.
I did enter 2 of my Watercolors in a Themed Art Show “Coastal New England” at Seacoast Art Association just to try one out 🙂 I would rather sell each piece for $45.00 and let the buyer mat and frame to their liking. They will hang till Aug.1st with an Artist Reception on Friday, the 17th though not sure how my mom will come through surgery so I will not plan on attending unless all goes well.
Hope you are all doing better than me man has it been a rough stretch.
Waiting on Mom’s fourth knee surgery appointment to be set up, so while my brother and sister in law took her to doctor appointments in Boston we set off in search of used picture frames, for my first public(besides all of you lol) Art Show. I did not find what I wanted so today and tomorrow I will search and then buy new if need be. I must drop the 2 of them off by next Saturday. I will take a photo of them up with all of the other artists entries in this themed show New England Coast.
Have a great weekend and Happy Father’s Day to all the Daddy’s out there.
With all the medical stuff going on with all of those I love, I still try to unwind. Sometimes just getting caught up on the happenings within Facebook and other times I push Mom outside to sit in the sun and throw a toy to JT. She hurt herself bad and hobbled for 3 weeks. She is a little better today and with rain coming tonight and into tomorrow I may take her to sit with my Mom all day unless my honey is doing something a lot more fun and she will stay with him.
I do bring my paints in car daily and sometimes the stress I feel has me going out to the car and bringing them in and painting while I watch my mother sleep. She will be eighty this fall and did her first Watercolor with me last week. I think she had fun.
I will show you a few of my recent ones and maybe a few photos too I will have to see what is still on my computer to share.
Trying to catch up on life in the world of blogging 🙂 It will be fun reading all I can of yours.
Here are a few updates on my world if you have been following along that is.
May had me busy with Mom daily from 7 AM till 7 PM except days my brother took her into Boston to have her cast changed, about every 2 weeks or so. Last time I posted was on the 17th I think.
With a new Pacemaker keeping my man’s heart beating properly I am still fearful for him who has diabetes, High blood pressure, arteries filling with crud faster than a new diet plan can fix.
He is home and feeling better and just had another birthday which would not have been possible had he not said yes to the surgery. On the day after his return from hospital stay I rounded the corner to home only to see loose dogs in the roadway and a man on the ground appearing to be looking under his truck but something just said to call out “Hey you OK?” no reply so I dial 911 and ran to his side with my man leaving JT in the car and joining me. Others joined in when they saw me run and then yell towards the home where he was parked. A woman with severe anxiety said she had taken a course long ago in CPR so as the 911 responder and I counted she pumped on his poor chest. I had seen him take his last breath as his arm slowly fell to the ground, his mother in disbelief kept walking back into the house leaving us with her son.
In the end we would learn he had recent heart issues and had come home to tell his mom “I may make it to my 42 ND birthday” he died the day before and in doing so I hope all the while my man was paying attention and feeling a little more grateful and not thinking of the pain he was in. I swear I can not make up this life I live.
Now I was so stressed with leaving him home alone to recover while I sat with Mom and called endlessly for her cat Ralfie to come back home. I prayed as well as made promises and got a call from someone who saw his photo on Facebook Missing Pets pages, many of them I added his photo too, though knowing in my gut he was close and just scared to show himself, indoor only cats are like that but I never gave up. I filled traps that caught my brother’s cat and a possum but not a gorgeous black cat.
Some were getting angry I am sure for trying to keep mom positive about finding him after all he was just a cat right, well no he was her world. He kept her going after dad died needing food and fresh litter and lots of hugs how could I tell her to give up when he never gave up on her for those 4 months she spent away from him in hospital and rehab facilities.
So back to the call and the text of a photo of a cat just like him. He was really just a town away and after 17 days gone surly he could travel the 4 miles in the woods but cross the river I doubt it but I wanted to return him so badly to mom who was loosing her mind with worry as well as her will to get strong and go home. I went two times to try to coax cat out and into the cat carrier but last attempt with my brother was the saddest. We had taken 2 cars so he went back home to mom and I travelled in tears to my home arriving long after my due time praying the cage I left would soon have Ralf inside. I was not home but 5 min. when my brother called to ask me to just go back to that couple’s home and retrieve his carrier. It was as if I was the only one who believed he would come back to her. I prayed not only for God to show him the way home but closed my eyes on the way home asking my daddy to show the knucklehead the way back to Tom’s home. So I asked are you giving up too? He then says” actually Ralf is sitting on moms lap as we speak!”. Are you kidding me I went from such despair to such joy all within moments HE WAS HOME!
Seems his daughter was in a new car with her boyfriend who was learning to clutch again and as he stalled out the headlights stayed on and they saw his beautiful green eyes shining brightly just 2 doors down on steps that looked just like the ones he ran down as he had made his escape. They came home got a towel to wrap/catch him in and he was home! He was so emaciated having lost 1/3 of his weight and his hind leg was out of its socket but he was in moms lap.
Now to get them both on their feet and as healthy as they can be with her almost 80 and him next weekend turning 15.
Oh and I think I see my first gray hair growing at my hairline in front, stayed tuned more to come trust me lol
Forgot to upload his AFTER photo sorry I will add later.
Life is hard isn’t it truly I just do not know what will happen next only that my hope is to get through it.
Sorry I have not been here of late Facebook is easy from phone to check on those on my list but I can not blog from it yet.
Still sitting with Mom for 10 hours a day with just under a hour each way to travel from my place not complaining though as it was 2 1/2 hours each way when she was in rehab.
Still sitting is taking a toll on not only my knees but with her still in a cast unable to use her $200,000.00 knee it is getting crazy :(.
Then Friday night my man and best friend called me while I was with mom and said he lost feeling in left arm and hand I thought stroke and begged him to call 911 but he chose to go see his primary care nurse who then called me to inform me they were calling 911 and sending him to hospital mind you I am all alone with mom and unable to leave. I still don’t drink or have gray hair but I swear there may be a chance for both.
Sister in law came in and I took off for home and hospital. First I had to let the pets out and then feed them. I called a friend to bring me to pick up his truck at doctors office then it was time to drive further east to see what was going on with him. It was so late in the day I had just missed him in ER and had to wait till they had him in ICU before seeing him which by the way almost did not happen as visiting hours were now over. I walked in to seeing him lying there and so scared and worried he was not using what little oxygen his heart was making to think clearly he told them he wanted to die. REALLY? Not on my watch! I asked what was wrong and they said one part of his heart was not talking to the other half he was in big trouble and he had already refused a way to help himself. I begged him to stop worrying and let them help him and in the end he did.
They placed a temp. pacemaker to make the two halves of the heart get along I got the call just before 1 AM that it was a success and his heart rate was now 80 and not the 25 I had last seen him with and them with a crash cart ready to save him over and over till a team could be called in on a Friday night to save him.
He hates doctors and hospitals I explained we all do but to be happy when they can fix a problem so dire as him within a hour he should be thanking not only God but all of them who even had me scared.
Last night while getting into the hospital parking lot the phone rings and it is Mom in tears. Seems her 14 year old house cat taken from his home to live with my mom at my brothers place had been allowed to exit the home. He doesn’t know the world outside and as of last night still no kitty. Mom is so sick with worry and I am so sad as I know this will be yet another huge setback in her plan to get well. I always say my prayers for others and never ask anything for myself but today I am asking for no more bad news here or in the world my heart just aches.
So if you think I have been ignoring you I haven’t been I just am never here to catch up with all of you. I hope you are well and staying safe.
My cat better be good she is 14 and wise but there is still evil that lurks waiting to pounce on her 😦
Still no good news about my Mom she is now done with third surgery on new knee only this time she came out with it wired together and is now in a 30 lb fiberglass cast and she has no muscle left after a year and a half in and out of rehab hospitals. We pulled her out of last one because we were scared for her even though we liked the people just not enough help when one is helpless. Just been a plain nightmare for all of us but mostly Mom.
The snow all 8′ of it is just about gone and even with that huge melt we were under a severe red flag warning for fires.
We are getting the place ready for Spring /Summer so much to do but am looking forward to flowers blooming and not the store bought variety I bring Mom.
No bears have stopped by and my male turkey must be off hunting for a bevy of girls lol isn’t life simple at times.
The stress even with Watercolor painting almost daily has done a number on me. 5 pounds gained and no covered with red spots they say is Psoriasis. OH joy itchy, scratching and just trying to smile and de-stress 😦 So many lotions and potions will now be lathered on. I hate it when our bodies fail us.
Sorry not much good news well then again the snow is gone 🙂
Here is one of my latest paintings you can see I am trying to find Peace.
I have been going back and forth to Boston suburbs to visit my mom and when I come home to the snow and a hungry man and cat and dog I am tired. Sometimes I paint a small piece to chill/unwind and de-stress all the worry within as mom doesn’t seem to be moving towards going home which saddens me.
I continue to pray for a miracle that will bring her back home to us and her cat it is all I can do.
Some good news for those who have followed me for a few years my son the artist entered a contest and guess what he WON lol I needed good news 🙂 you can click on this link and read the article and see his winning entry.
Mom is back in rehab after hopefully a successful repair of the new knew replacement. I find I have settled in using calming colors for me as I pick up my wet brush and being to try to unwind I pray she will be better than ever soon
Looking out to sea I feel her pain on a day like this
A point where the waves splashed over and took some of this back out with it.
A popular section of NH along the ocean “what ocean”you say lol we said the same thing we go to the beach all winter you know that as followers but this day in order to take a ride along the sea and actually see the horizon or waves you would have to climb these snow banks and I was wanting to see it bad enough to try but there was no place to park. This is where hundreds of surfers begin to park on days when the storm surge is crazy see they love crazy lol
I found a spot I could see the sea 🙂
Boy he or she must be hungry with storm after storm 😦
Just driving and shooting so photos could be so much better
Now for a few from Massachusetts
Storm battered summer homes
Much work for us hearty souls who call New England home 🙂
Hi Everyone. We have been flat out getting snow removed from roof on the house and the RV and the very old truck, my Dodge broken, sits under a very heavy load. I was looking to have it towed by a local junk yard for cash but the place burnt down. So I will wait.
I have that male wild turkey here and as I watched him get spooked by the wind he tried to fly over the barn but his judgment was off really off and he came down hard onto the snow packed roof of my barn/art studio. It was not until I ran out to see if he was OK that I saw how much snow was still on the roof of the barn. Here I had taken thousands of pounds of snow off the house but had thought the barn was Ok with it’s much steeper pitch. I was wrong. There was over 3 feet deep snow on both sides of my barn. Buildings were collapsing all over New England and if we did nothing I could loose everything. Our roof rake was not long enough to do much here so I searched the local shops and found a $50 model 12 miles up the road so off we went.
I found a Blue Jay in the drive way when I came off the roof and set up an old Parakeet cage for it to get it warm and give it food and water
He watched me paint all day but sadly he either was so hurt inside or just to old to fight and I lost him. Even though I was so sad having not gotten to see him fly off with the others, just outside the door, I am glad he had a peaceful day with us.
He was so pretty
This winter is hard, see it came all at once, usually we get a system pass through drop some snow and leave us to clean up but this one all we do is remove, snow day in and day out even the wildlife are finding it hard to get by or get around in 3 to 4 foot deep snow.
I cleaned off the home with this newest tool and then him and I headed to the barn with JT coming along with her stick but she saw little action as we had so much snow to drop to the ground and then to move it all before it sat and became ice.
The snow is very high up on most of our windows
Seriously we have had more than our share of snow and now a foot of more and then another storm on this weekend’s heals. If you live on the other side of the Atlantic please let me know what happens to these fronts as they head out across our ocean and head for England, etc.
Have a wonderful Valentine’s Day
We will go see my mom in the hospital her knee surgery went great but during rehab her ACL let go, praying she will heal up and get her other knee done so she can be whole again.
I am so tired I have to sign off for now here is the art I was working on while caring for the wild bird.
Yes more trees and paying homage to nature and the love of my wild birds red or blue, grey or black, I adore them all
I am sure if you live in the United States you are hearing all about our plight. Yes it is winter and yes I live in New England but really a BLIZZARD come on two feet plus of snow in one dump and to top it off where I am to add insult to injury 60 to 70 mph winds. It will be crazy in these parts so I cried uncle and hired a young guy with a new truck to plow here he will be worth his weight in gold. I will still need to go up onto the roof but that will not be while those winds are around though with high snow banks I won’t fall far :).I will say a prayer for all of those in her path forget it’s name what’s with all these foolish named storms this could out do our famous Blizzard of 78. Mom goes into surgery on Thursday so I hope the Gov. of MA doesn’t shut the roads down for too long. That is it for now from me as I will go back to painting and staying safe as can be. I have water set aside for us, the pets, the toilets and to paint with and we have heat, batteries and candles as well as canned goods, we are well versed in this winter thing 🙂