Mom’s surgery is over today was a day to begin recovery and it was horrible to watch her suffer in horrible pain and me being me I demanded they start caring for my mom as much as I cared for my dog. They got the message and started doing all they could to stop all the break through pain that was gut wrenching to watch as a helpless daughter. So yes big mouths are good 🙂 When my brother went after work tonight he said she was in a better place and enjoying a North End Cannoli yes from the North End of Boston. I can sleep better tonight knowing the insanity will soon be over and she will be sent home where I will do my best 12 to 13 hours a day to see to her needs. Honor thy Mother and Father.
Some good news I got on my way to Boston the two paintings I did and worried about sharing in an art show well the man said the one titled Maine sold today 🙂 show goes till the AUG.1, hope I sell both and they love them hung in their home or office 🙂 The meet and greet is tomorrow night.
Depending on how life goes I will try to keep up here but by phone it just doesn’t work well for me.
It is Saturday morning and time for some coffee and run through my blog roll and to let you know life’s twists and turns are still happening but trying to find silver linings all the same.
Mom’s surgery to fuse her leg will be next Wednesday from what she told me about her meeting with surgeon it will be 3 to 4 hours under sedation as they place a rod from her hip down the leg to her ankle wonder how they will account for the inches in height each year 😦 yes I am always left with these type of questions as it is my brother and sister in law that are handling all of moms affairs. I had no car for 2 years so hard to take her to and from constant appointments.
I had a shocking call as well just before the fourth seems I have not heard from my stepson for 2 years and in that time he was addicted to Heroin. What happened to meting friends for some pizza and beer 😦 the call I received was to let me know he had overdosed and was gone. Just 42. Kind of old I thought for such heavy drug use but seems it is all the rage which yes which has me enraged at societies who do nothing to stop the influx of poison on it’s people sort of as if they have the opposite plan 😦 He was laid to rest two days ago no longer will he suffer with feeling so useless and lost that a drug of this caliber could make him feel whole. RIP Jimmy how I wish you were still a little boy.
I still take photos and paint but with all that has been going on it has become somewhat forced as a way to walk away and chill. I like when it is fun and this has not been a god run on fun.
I did enter 2 of my Watercolors in a Themed Art Show “Coastal New England” at Seacoast Art Association just to try one out 🙂 I would rather sell each piece for $45.00 and let the buyer mat and frame to their liking. They will hang till Aug.1st with an Artist Reception on Friday, the 17th though not sure how my mom will come through surgery so I will not plan on attending unless all goes well.
Hope you are all doing better than me man has it been a rough stretch.
Waiting on Mom’s fourth knee surgery appointment to be set up, so while my brother and sister in law took her to doctor appointments in Boston we set off in search of used picture frames, for my first public(besides all of you lol) Art Show. I did not find what I wanted so today and tomorrow I will search and then buy new if need be. I must drop the 2 of them off by next Saturday. I will take a photo of them up with all of the other artists entries in this themed show New England Coast.
Have a great weekend and Happy Father’s Day to all the Daddy’s out there.
With all the medical stuff going on with all of those I love, I still try to unwind. Sometimes just getting caught up on the happenings within Facebook and other times I push Mom outside to sit in the sun and throw a toy to JT. She hurt herself bad and hobbled for 3 weeks. She is a little better today and with rain coming tonight and into tomorrow I may take her to sit with my Mom all day unless my honey is doing something a lot more fun and she will stay with him.
I do bring my paints in car daily and sometimes the stress I feel has me going out to the car and bringing them in and painting while I watch my mother sleep. She will be eighty this fall and did her first Watercolor with me last week. I think she had fun.
I will show you a few of my recent ones and maybe a few photos too I will have to see what is still on my computer to share.
Trying to catch up on life in the world of blogging 🙂 It will be fun reading all I can of yours.
Here are a few updates on my world if you have been following along that is.
May had me busy with Mom daily from 7 AM till 7 PM except days my brother took her into Boston to have her cast changed, about every 2 weeks or so. Last time I posted was on the 17th I think.
With a new Pacemaker keeping my man’s heart beating properly I am still fearful for him who has diabetes, High blood pressure, arteries filling with crud faster than a new diet plan can fix.
He is home and feeling better and just had another birthday which would not have been possible had he not said yes to the surgery. On the day after his return from hospital stay I rounded the corner to home only to see loose dogs in the roadway and a man on the ground appearing to be looking under his truck but something just said to call out “Hey you OK?” no reply so I dial 911 and ran to his side with my man leaving JT in the car and joining me. Others joined in when they saw me run and then yell towards the home where he was parked. A woman with severe anxiety said she had taken a course long ago in CPR so as the 911 responder and I counted she pumped on his poor chest. I had seen him take his last breath as his arm slowly fell to the ground, his mother in disbelief kept walking back into the house leaving us with her son.
In the end we would learn he had recent heart issues and had come home to tell his mom “I may make it to my 42 ND birthday” he died the day before and in doing so I hope all the while my man was paying attention and feeling a little more grateful and not thinking of the pain he was in. I swear I can not make up this life I live.
Now I was so stressed with leaving him home alone to recover while I sat with Mom and called endlessly for her cat Ralfie to come back home. I prayed as well as made promises and got a call from someone who saw his photo on Facebook Missing Pets pages, many of them I added his photo too, though knowing in my gut he was close and just scared to show himself, indoor only cats are like that but I never gave up. I filled traps that caught my brother’s cat and a possum but not a gorgeous black cat.
Some were getting angry I am sure for trying to keep mom positive about finding him after all he was just a cat right, well no he was her world. He kept her going after dad died needing food and fresh litter and lots of hugs how could I tell her to give up when he never gave up on her for those 4 months she spent away from him in hospital and rehab facilities.
So back to the call and the text of a photo of a cat just like him. He was really just a town away and after 17 days gone surly he could travel the 4 miles in the woods but cross the river I doubt it but I wanted to return him so badly to mom who was loosing her mind with worry as well as her will to get strong and go home. I went two times to try to coax cat out and into the cat carrier but last attempt with my brother was the saddest. We had taken 2 cars so he went back home to mom and I travelled in tears to my home arriving long after my due time praying the cage I left would soon have Ralf inside. I was not home but 5 min. when my brother called to ask me to just go back to that couple’s home and retrieve his carrier. It was as if I was the only one who believed he would come back to her. I prayed not only for God to show him the way home but closed my eyes on the way home asking my daddy to show the knucklehead the way back to Tom’s home. So I asked are you giving up too? He then says” actually Ralf is sitting on moms lap as we speak!”. Are you kidding me I went from such despair to such joy all within moments HE WAS HOME!
Seems his daughter was in a new car with her boyfriend who was learning to clutch again and as he stalled out the headlights stayed on and they saw his beautiful green eyes shining brightly just 2 doors down on steps that looked just like the ones he ran down as he had made his escape. They came home got a towel to wrap/catch him in and he was home! He was so emaciated having lost 1/3 of his weight and his hind leg was out of its socket but he was in moms lap.
Now to get them both on their feet and as healthy as they can be with her almost 80 and him next weekend turning 15.
Oh and I think I see my first gray hair growing at my hairline in front, stayed tuned more to come trust me lol
Forgot to upload his AFTER photo sorry I will add later.
Life is hard isn’t it truly I just do not know what will happen next only that my hope is to get through it.
Sorry I have not been here of late Facebook is easy from phone to check on those on my list but I can not blog from it yet.
Still sitting with Mom for 10 hours a day with just under a hour each way to travel from my place not complaining though as it was 2 1/2 hours each way when she was in rehab.
Still sitting is taking a toll on not only my knees but with her still in a cast unable to use her $200,000.00 knee it is getting crazy :(.
Then Friday night my man and best friend called me while I was with mom and said he lost feeling in left arm and hand I thought stroke and begged him to call 911 but he chose to go see his primary care nurse who then called me to inform me they were calling 911 and sending him to hospital mind you I am all alone with mom and unable to leave. I still don’t drink or have gray hair but I swear there may be a chance for both.
Sister in law came in and I took off for home and hospital. First I had to let the pets out and then feed them. I called a friend to bring me to pick up his truck at doctors office then it was time to drive further east to see what was going on with him. It was so late in the day I had just missed him in ER and had to wait till they had him in ICU before seeing him which by the way almost did not happen as visiting hours were now over. I walked in to seeing him lying there and so scared and worried he was not using what little oxygen his heart was making to think clearly he told them he wanted to die. REALLY? Not on my watch! I asked what was wrong and they said one part of his heart was not talking to the other half he was in big trouble and he had already refused a way to help himself. I begged him to stop worrying and let them help him and in the end he did.
They placed a temp. pacemaker to make the two halves of the heart get along I got the call just before 1 AM that it was a success and his heart rate was now 80 and not the 25 I had last seen him with and them with a crash cart ready to save him over and over till a team could be called in on a Friday night to save him.
He hates doctors and hospitals I explained we all do but to be happy when they can fix a problem so dire as him within a hour he should be thanking not only God but all of them who even had me scared.
Last night while getting into the hospital parking lot the phone rings and it is Mom in tears. Seems her 14 year old house cat taken from his home to live with my mom at my brothers place had been allowed to exit the home. He doesn’t know the world outside and as of last night still no kitty. Mom is so sick with worry and I am so sad as I know this will be yet another huge setback in her plan to get well. I always say my prayers for others and never ask anything for myself but today I am asking for no more bad news here or in the world my heart just aches.
So if you think I have been ignoring you I haven’t been I just am never here to catch up with all of you. I hope you are well and staying safe.
My cat better be good she is 14 and wise but there is still evil that lurks waiting to pounce on her 😦
Still no good news about my Mom she is now done with third surgery on new knee only this time she came out with it wired together and is now in a 30 lb fiberglass cast and she has no muscle left after a year and a half in and out of rehab hospitals. We pulled her out of last one because we were scared for her even though we liked the people just not enough help when one is helpless. Just been a plain nightmare for all of us but mostly Mom.
The snow all 8′ of it is just about gone and even with that huge melt we were under a severe red flag warning for fires.
We are getting the place ready for Spring /Summer so much to do but am looking forward to flowers blooming and not the store bought variety I bring Mom.
No bears have stopped by and my male turkey must be off hunting for a bevy of girls lol isn’t life simple at times.
The stress even with Watercolor painting almost daily has done a number on me. 5 pounds gained and no covered with red spots they say is Psoriasis. OH joy itchy, scratching and just trying to smile and de-stress 😦 So many lotions and potions will now be lathered on. I hate it when our bodies fail us.
Sorry not much good news well then again the snow is gone 🙂
Here is one of my latest paintings you can see I am trying to find Peace.
I have been going back and forth to Boston suburbs to visit my mom and when I come home to the snow and a hungry man and cat and dog I am tired. Sometimes I paint a small piece to chill/unwind and de-stress all the worry within as mom doesn’t seem to be moving towards going home which saddens me.
I continue to pray for a miracle that will bring her back home to us and her cat it is all I can do.
Some good news for those who have followed me for a few years my son the artist entered a contest and guess what he WON lol I needed good news 🙂 you can click on this link and read the article and see his winning entry.
Mom is back in rehab after hopefully a successful repair of the new knew replacement. I find I have settled in using calming colors for me as I pick up my wet brush and being to try to unwind I pray she will be better than ever soon
Looking out to sea I feel her pain on a day like this
A point where the waves splashed over and took some of this back out with it.
A popular section of NH along the ocean “what ocean”you say lol we said the same thing we go to the beach all winter you know that as followers but this day in order to take a ride along the sea and actually see the horizon or waves you would have to climb these snow banks and I was wanting to see it bad enough to try but there was no place to park. This is where hundreds of surfers begin to park on days when the storm surge is crazy see they love crazy lol
I found a spot I could see the sea 🙂
Boy he or she must be hungry with storm after storm 😦
Just driving and shooting so photos could be so much better
Now for a few from Massachusetts
Storm battered summer homes
Much work for us hearty souls who call New England home 🙂
Hi Everyone. We have been flat out getting snow removed from roof on the house and the RV and the very old truck, my Dodge broken, sits under a very heavy load. I was looking to have it towed by a local junk yard for cash but the place burnt down. So I will wait.
I have that male wild turkey here and as I watched him get spooked by the wind he tried to fly over the barn but his judgment was off really off and he came down hard onto the snow packed roof of my barn/art studio. It was not until I ran out to see if he was OK that I saw how much snow was still on the roof of the barn. Here I had taken thousands of pounds of snow off the house but had thought the barn was Ok with it’s much steeper pitch. I was wrong. There was over 3 feet deep snow on both sides of my barn. Buildings were collapsing all over New England and if we did nothing I could loose everything. Our roof rake was not long enough to do much here so I searched the local shops and found a $50 model 12 miles up the road so off we went.
I found a Blue Jay in the drive way when I came off the roof and set up an old Parakeet cage for it to get it warm and give it food and water
He watched me paint all day but sadly he either was so hurt inside or just to old to fight and I lost him. Even though I was so sad having not gotten to see him fly off with the others, just outside the door, I am glad he had a peaceful day with us.
He was so pretty
This winter is hard, see it came all at once, usually we get a system pass through drop some snow and leave us to clean up but this one all we do is remove, snow day in and day out even the wildlife are finding it hard to get by or get around in 3 to 4 foot deep snow.
I cleaned off the home with this newest tool and then him and I headed to the barn with JT coming along with her stick but she saw little action as we had so much snow to drop to the ground and then to move it all before it sat and became ice.
The snow is very high up on most of our windows
Seriously we have had more than our share of snow and now a foot of more and then another storm on this weekend’s heals. If you live on the other side of the Atlantic please let me know what happens to these fronts as they head out across our ocean and head for England, etc.
Have a wonderful Valentine’s Day
We will go see my mom in the hospital her knee surgery went great but during rehab her ACL let go, praying she will heal up and get her other knee done so she can be whole again.
I am so tired I have to sign off for now here is the art I was working on while caring for the wild bird.
Yes more trees and paying homage to nature and the love of my wild birds red or blue, grey or black, I adore them all
I am sure if you live in the United States you are hearing all about our plight. Yes it is winter and yes I live in New England but really a BLIZZARD come on two feet plus of snow in one dump and to top it off where I am to add insult to injury 60 to 70 mph winds. It will be crazy in these parts so I cried uncle and hired a young guy with a new truck to plow here he will be worth his weight in gold. I will still need to go up onto the roof but that will not be while those winds are around though with high snow banks I won’t fall far :).I will say a prayer for all of those in her path forget it’s name what’s with all these foolish named storms this could out do our famous Blizzard of 78. Mom goes into surgery on Thursday so I hope the Gov. of MA doesn’t shut the roads down for too long. That is it for now from me as I will go back to painting and staying safe as can be. I have water set aside for us, the pets, the toilets and to paint with and we have heat, batteries and candles as well as canned goods, we are well versed in this winter thing 🙂
The 60F Christmas is long past. The frigid air of January blew in and on some days took my actual breath away. Use the inhaler and breath into a scarf or a gloved hand BRRRRRR damn it is cold.
I had a wonderful Christmas with family after 9 years I saw a true miracle. Feeling so blessed.
As I sit on this Sat. morning looking through your blog posts I am so cold and yes I have to coal stove going but it is doing little in this room where my desk sets time for a new window and take out that 30 year old plant window and place her into the barn on the east side. I have it covered with plastic still to cold. I paint in the room with heat source or my watercolors would freeze lol before they dry. I could turn on the furnace run by propane but we paid almost $5 per gal. for it so I am trying to make it last. 🙂 Wonder how they feel screwing us all for so many years now that our market has dropped lol you know what they say about pay back!
So how is everyone? You cold or warm or just right 🙂
I actually took a ride to the coast I must have been out of my mind. It was -16F here and maybe 7F when I stepped out that afternoon at the beach. I actually got to see Smoke On The Water as the warmth of the Atlantic Ocean met those nasty cold temps. I was too cold to jump out for a photo at that moment though. So here is a few from our day we got out of the house as all I seem to do these days is cook, clean and paint.
Here is a piece I am working on in my studio(where it is warm)
Well we woke early to let JT open her gifts and then we got ourselves ready for the half hour ride to my brothers. I made a 10″ Cheese Cake, with a home made cranberry sauce topping, just enough to swirl into the top a letter M, either for our last name or MERRY lol. Sorry no photos I promise next time I will.
JT started to open this first gift and had the same look on her face as I did as a child upon opening CLOTHES on Christmas lol
This better be a toy or you will have to call Santa back!
Wait for it 🙂
I throw it raise the camera and try to capture my toss before I capture her catch
Hope you had a wonderful day and a beautiful Boxing Day as well to my visitors who celebrate it that way 🙂
I will be busy wrapping and baking today for our family gathering tomorrow.
Church tonight but not at midnight just the fact I am going is a miracle, so long ago I just stopped making the time. Mind you I never stopped praying or giving thanks but this will be an odd but beautiful evening of wonderful music and uplifting words I am sure. One of the members of the garden club asked me if I would like to go with her and I said yes. 🙂
Please remember our families are made up of many personalities and as you come together or spend it alone know you truly are not alone and that no family is like the TV SITCOMS, that is just writers wanting a perfect family as well 🙂 we see how the actors truly are not who they portrayed, so keep it real and try to have a wonderful holiday.
I will be with my family for the first time in 10 years and though I am worried, I was mostly saddened as I shopped for the perfect gifts for them because I do not know them anymore. People change, tastes change and even their needs change. I felt like I was shopping for strangers and that hurt, which sadly I did not think I would feel these emotions when I am so happy to be included. Mind you they no longer know me either do they. Some of you know more about me than my family ever will. You have read the stories saw the pictures and know who I am and I am glad you are there, you will continue to be the presents in my life 🙂
Stay safe in this crazy world of ours, hold those you love tightly because we all know we are not promised a tomorrow.
As the Holiday season begins today I wanted to wish you all a beautiful holiday no matter which one it is you and your loved one celebrate. Sending you Joy and Love and a Wish For Peace To Spread Worldwide boy we sure could use it badly. HUGS
My last post sounded so nice right lol well I cooked and prepared for our family feast but so did the weather.
On Wednesday as the last of my cooking was complete the snow began to fall. I even went out with another Garden Club member to hang 30 swags we had made on Sunday throughout the downtown. We were wet and cold but please with the holiday color in town taking shape. We swung in for a cup of hot chocolate to warm us on the ride home. Tomorrow we have 84 tropical Poinsettias arriving for delivery OH BOY! You see Wednesday night we lost all power due to the heavy wet snow and just our first of this soon to be winter season wait it is still fall right.
Today is Sat. and this morning we got the power back It was 32 degrees F. brrr we did have one warm spot in the house the 4 us cuddled up in and lots of veggies as we never did get together with family down the road as they too had no party and moved it 50 miles south so we stayed home and off the nasty roads. Maybe we will get another chance at Christmas.
I painted during daylight with melted snow 🙂 over on Folsom Mill Studio blog I will post the results this is a shot of Spicy Cranberry Sauce I made and second shot of our world today 🙂
In The Old Days We Travelled By Foot, no wonder we all got to grandma’s house on time, for family gatherings.
Family and friends now live with so many miles between they must travel by air and rail as well as packing up the family car. No wonder today in the United States has become a day of nightmares for all even if you are just making the dinner, you begin to worry about all of them travelling to you.
Today will be one of epic weather events up and down the east coast, in fact I am not even sure of any other disastrous weather across the US as we are just getting bombarded with news of doom and gloom and traffic nightmares. Is it too late to hope for it to stay out to sea 🙂
I am hoping you all have a wonderful day tomorrow either at work or with family and maybe you will watch football and nap after the huge meal or go shopping for all the deals each store is trying to out do the others with, for your hard earned buck just please stay safe out there, I do not have to tell you it is crazy out there.
We will clear most of what we get for snow tonight so we can get out of our yard by mid day and travel not so far to my brothers home for just a few hours of laughter and fun with family. I made fresh cranberry sauce with a zip. I stuffed the butternut squash and mushrooms no green bean casserole for this girl. I made a hot artichoke and spinach dip that is so very cheesy not sure I will have room for the BIRD!
Tomorrow I hope to be the start of a new family tradition of loving and forgiving one another for being human with our own heartache and pain and know that life is worth fighting for and that family is all we truly have. We all have faults and problems of our own and you know what it comes down to the miles in between. No longer sitting around each others tables and seeing what each other are going through on a day to day basis makes misunderstandings more probable.
Cal your family and tell them you love them very much. Swing by if they are close enough and give them a really good hug.
I swear if after 10 years I have been invited to be apart of my once loving family before Dad died anything is possible.
Keep the faith!
Should you find yourself alone stop at a shelter to help feed the people who have lost their way and families or go to a local hospital and spread some love and tell some stories and watch the difference one person can truly make, what ever you do please do not spend your day alone dwelling on what others have done to you. That would be better than any turkey dinner.
Surgery went OK and the patient came home the next day but has had a horrible headache since so we will see the doctor in a few hours to find out why. Seeing the doctor 6 days before his appointment is not really a great sign but I would rather be safe then sorry. OH wait it is HIM lol but he makes ME 🙂
As you can see by my re-blogs here from my art blog I have stayed busy and upbeat since the last of the colored leaves are falling with this horrid wind. I swear I will not complain too much with what I see just 6 hours west of me.
Trying to catch up little by little on all of your spots here in the blogosphere nice seeing what you are up to.
Will being having a Thanksgiving with Mom and my brother which has not been done for 10 years so you know I am happily planning on what goodies I can bring to the table to celebrate together seems just good enough for me. Can we kiss and make up I pray that is in the cards. The day for me will be all about giving thanks as it should be.
For all of you in the States and great sides you think maybe different but perfect for my first foray into the family fold again 🙂
I will make my spicy Cranberry sauce for sure as we love a little heat as does my baby brother.
I have been a painting fool to say the least and add a few now and then into my online stores to be used as a print of phone skins and even baby clothes 🙂 you can follow my Facebook page at Folsom Mill Studio if you need to be flooded by color.
As the days get gray in color here and we wait for the first big dump of snow I will just add water and mix my colors well and fill the days with COLOR and good will for mankind.
Please take care of yourselves and those you adore.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving if I get busy and can not pop in before next week.
Heading out for some inspiration but wanted to share what I have been working on while I await my boyfriends surgery on the 14th. Please say a little prayer he will come out of this OK He has blocked Corroded arteries(neck) he doesn’t smoke but has type 2 diabetes and loves French Fries 😦 I am hoping when he writes out his power of attorney to me as well as a will this week it becomes real and he changes his diet 🙂
Hi Everyone! Our first snow is due to fall between tonight and Monday and they say the winds will be fierce at times 🙂 maybe it will blow it off the roof! Yes tis the season once again one day raking the next shoveling never a dull moment in New England.
We put the yard to bed. Ran the mower out of gas and brought the snow blower up to shed closer to the house and stored the rakes for the garden hoes too and brought up snow shovels and ordered coal to keep us warm. We use propane but they charge an arm and leg and it never keeps this place warm.
I cook and clean and seldom leave the house these days. You know I love making things be it beaded pieces or glass items crocheting even but with painting it is sheer happiness. Not a care or stress just wet and let it go 🙂
Today I completed two pieces I had in different stages of completion and then whipped up a bunch of Abstract Watercolors I will sell for others to mat and frame and cheer up a spot on their wall or table or maybe even a piano!
I will share with you then add to my blog My Portfolio with sizes and prices. It was a stress free first day of November here in NH as I hope it was with each of you.
Take care and thanks for looking I love feed back you know.