It has been hot and very humid but not like our poor west has been enduring.
I have lots of dragonflies here in the yard all posing for me and watching my every move. Maybe I am blessed with so many beautiful things wild included, because I spend time watching out for them. I pick up and move turtles from roadways I also throw on my hazards(4 way flashes) when a mother bird is walking her babies across a roadway yes I do it for humans too 🙂 even in my rig for endless mile after mile I tried to always look out for others. Being aware is all I know are you that way do you really see?
Cooler temps. are on their way they say for 2 days with periods of rain so I will continue to work at the pile of dirt with my hoe and shovel and yes a wheelbarrow we need muscles bad. I get so out of shape painting but making new friends in the art world now and have even said I will join in on a local “Wet Paint Out” this month and yesterday I taught 17 others at my local library a few things about Watercolor, all fun but I need to put my yard first 4 days a week. My hope is to offer a place for visiting artists to come and teach. We have a motel 10 miles away for the students and the instructor could stay here and I would provide meals and bed and bath. It is early in the process but it is my desire to leave my place for the arts. I will need an attorney and a business plan to set it in motion but it is the way I intend to leave this space if I can. So time to continue planting pretty spots for them to find inspiration while visiting.
Growing these in a pot. Cardinal Flowers grow along my river here now they will have new ones in a place where they will make an impact on my lower yard.
My Yucca blooms each year around the 4th of July
I always have loads of Annuals for splashes of bold color close to the house with my veggies.
Have a wonderful day. After I am done outside I shall paint after all it is #WorldWatercolorMonth #watercolorchallenge
Painting with the rest of them and doing my best to follow the prompt.
I am looking forward to trying my first Paintout coming up soon in Portsmouth NH
not sure anyone will see it never mind offer it for sale but I have to try Plein Air and keep trying to get it right, it is how I can grow as a painter.
I now have art hanging in Epping, Exeter and Portsmouth not mind blowing art mind you but putting myself out there to be judged even though this is my third year of painting if I push myself it is only then that I will excell.
I have met so many really nice people out there. A few so full of themselves which is good as they will end up keeping themselves company, just wish they could see what could be. I will stay open to possibilities and not close myself off to the world outside my door.
I will teach a group my love of Watercolor on Tuesday wish me luck as I thought I was teaching children 🙂 I have made up 60 blank bookmarks out of wc paper and even punched a hole for them to take home and add ribbons too. I will teach them about a wet into wet wash then add salt for texture and then when dry have them finish a scene from their own mind which we all know is limitless. I just hope I can make them happy for an hour and a half or two.
After I spend time in the library I pack up and go to my own class to make the next attempts on this one yes very blurry but was giving my Facebook followers a sneak peak 🙂 (Folsom Mill Studio) can not wait to drop in the next layer.
Thanks for stopping by I am trying to get back into my reader and blogging. Have a great week!
Not much snow to deal with this year just enough to remind us we are in New England.
Took this the day of Superbowl, as we took a walk into the woods to make up for all the sitting we would do when the game started at suppertime. We had a nice walk with JT but she comes back more and more lame at just 10. I hate drugs and since I do not take them I feel bad about giving them to my girl, so we go for gentle walks less leaping for her favorite toy and more of me just kicking a stick for her to chase god I will miss her when she is gone.
I have been painting now with more purpose. I enter shows not to win but to be seen and grow from the experience. I am gathering the ones I love and making more cards for this years craft fairs. I have ideas on what to do with my 3 story barn maybe an artist in residence, maybe just a gallery with many artists selling their pieces here. The dreams are endless thankfully or I would buy another rig and hit the road again. I promised mom I would stay off the road and continue to create but it is hard when I can no longer pick up the phone to call her.
Not sure if I will keep this blog but if I do I have to remember to add small photos to posts after I just had to delete so many from prior posts that I go and add a huge one. I will figure it eventually till then I will be here in the background reading yours.
Take care time for me to watch our Superbowl Champions in Boston celebrate once again!
You would never know we are in a severe drought here in New England. My garden is lush and producing easily 20 pounds a day of food perfect when you have no money for the finer things in life, others take for granted.
I have stayed at home to tend to me and the fruits of my labor. This totally organic all non GMO and mostly heirloom garden of mine. With so much sun damage, skin cancer I bought my very first pair of sunglasses and a floppy hat. I go into the garden early and late in the day with my girl and her toy. She rests while I pick and after rinsing them it is her time to play. Friends say she needs her own Facebook page 🙂 I think a chapter in my memoir will be enough as you all know her.
I received really bad news last week, that after the 2 year battle to get mom back up and walking on her own she has been kicked down bad with hearing she has cancer. She had the tests every 6 months on her esophagus but had always aced them. This time the news was bad, it is elsewhere. She now has it in her liver as well. She is terminal. She is trying to hold on to attend her granddaughter’s wedding in November I say move the date up and let my mom go peacefully, but hey who am I. I am angry after her fighting so hard to go back home with her cat that this is how the story will end, sad about her being scared but putting in another 6 to 9 rounds in this ring of life. We made a big deal last Oct. on her 80th birthday as she made it, to now being doubtful for a 81st. Life is not easy we all know this don’t we but not fair as well. I will see her tonight and try to speak of old times, fun things and bring soft, yummy stuff, to eat. Hope she loves Ratatouille and cheesecake.
I have some amazing tomatoes as they are her favorite and at this point there is no reason to avoid any food I want her to delight in their amazing flavor while she can still taste.
I have been inside on hot days crocheting with maybe only two days where I painted but not because I do not want to but because our town is celebrating our 257th birthday and I will be adding a table at the craft fair. I will have a couple of fused glass bracelets, some Watercolors and baby hats and booties for sale. My heart was in it before mom’s news but now not so much. Push forward and carry on as I gave my word I would take a spot of a now sold out show. I have all kinds of hats and booties to complete and then package them for next Saturday. After the 20th, everything the all volunteer committee I have been on for two years, will be behind us. We will have a parade, craft fair, fun and games for the children and fireworks to complete the celebration. I pray I am around to see what the younger folks do on her 300th.
I hope you are all doing ok. I hope for those in the US you have not gone crazy over the presidential race. We have to know by now what little difference will either make. My wish is to kick everyone out of Congress/Senate, strip them of their monthly stipend for life and get new blood in, allow them 2 years at a time do something or they are gone. No carrying the financial burden our country does for those who care so little for their country and those of us who reside here. Yes I never speak of the crap out there but I am paying attention.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Please be kind to one another.
Our area went from warm and wonderful to rainy and raw day after day but with Alberta CA sections burning up as well as other places here and abroad I have very little really to complain about.
This is my Bleeding Heart that sits facing the east in my yard wonder if she would like just a tad more light. 🙂 I know I would
I have still been at it with Watercolors but not at such a breakneck speed now I think and mix color with clear intent and try to catch a couple of lessons a month but with art gallery having their grand opening and a few shows I entered in their Theme Show format I am doing a little more photography infact joined a meetup group right above studio to join in on some challenges as it is a low key group that seems willing to share ideas on sharing your shot in a better light as well as places to meet up and shoot like they just had a meetup at a Steampunk gathering. I have not done any of that yet but just entered my 3 shots for this month “Body Parts” I will not bore you with photos but will tell you I had one of my bare foot in the freshly tilled soil of my organic garden yes my feet were clean but frozen by the time I was done working, JT my Border Collie most of you know from photos and stories of course had a spot this time a close of her beautiful eye how I love this dog now turning a year older today I swear I do not know where the time went. The third shot I took was of my boyfriends 1950’s truck then I did some wild processing on photo just so they would be all different and not boring like my Birthday ride oceans scenes I shared with them last month for “Power” has the sea has a hold on me, that lighthouse will be above where my ashes are spread and the force of a wave is anything but weak but you know where my head is at most days.
I will try to get more photography printed and hung in local shows and online they sell well enough to pay for my painting supplies so others must like the plain simple beauty of what is.
Hope you are all doing OK I am off to read some of your blogs have a wonderful week!
OH I forgot I took a night with a friend and tried Acrylic photo latter
I added 2 framed pieces of Watercolor to the Theme Wall at Seacoast Artist Association. This month’s theme is Wild With Color. Now I could have framed some of my amazing Sunrises even Sunsets or Pink Peonies. Maybe my popular monster Sunflowers even but I chose two of my colorful landscapes filled with tree trunks with pretty bark 🙂
No longer laid out against my red countertops but are in pretty rich brown frames under glass. I will miss them if they sell but even looking at them here as I type I can see I have grown much like a tree 🙂 ever changing and it make me so happy.
Still not comfortable with others judging me or my artwork but I can not sell it if I do not put myself out there 🙂
My town is celebrating it’s 275th birthday and the committee group is trying to raise monies for a parade and fireworks so I donated one of my framed pieces as a raffle gift hope enough like it to raise $40 or $50 for my part of the cause. All starving artists have is what they create.
I did straighten out the title lol
Mom is doing great I have more good days and the pup my sweet little girl rests more and loves the pumpkin cookies I make for her 🙂 Going grain free myself and hoping her and I will be back at our fighting weight 🙂
Do you know I did not climb up once on the roof and only raked it once shhh it is only March and I will finally turn 60 I can not believe it myself lol there were many close calls and still not gray!
Here is what I did the other day thinking of taking my girl for a walk to go find some 🙂
Still wet as I posted it to Facebook and it sold 🙂 now I can do an oil change 🙂
Have a great March everyone soon I will share photos from the Boston Flower Show which opens in 2 weeks!
Wow what a difference a year makes and in so many ways!
There is very little snow on the ground yes I know it can still just be a tad late but I personally am through the worst part of winter, with spring arriving in what, just 4 weeks! I am dancing even with sore knees. lol Not so sore I took a shot in each and it helped a lot and will give me time to get my pup cared for and guess what Mom’s surgery on left knee was such a success she is being allowed back home early! Wow see what I mean about being thankful. So many prayers said and great thoughts and energy how could she suffer again. Thanks so much.
Our garden club will attend the Boston Flower Show next month so heads up there maybe flower photos soon lol We are now taking orders for Pansy Bowls at just $15 for a full 12/14″ bowl brimming with pretty little flower faces I can not wait for mine to greet me each day as I arrive home. Maybe I will try to paint them 🙂
Having Mom be in a better place my man doing OK with his pacemaker and my knees not hurting so bad now to get my pup feeling better all will be right in my small world.
Not sure about my reader so many I left a like on today I had not seen forever and ones I usually see were missing 😦 I will keep searching till I find you 🙂
I am going to try to add this video here not sure if the video will work 🙂
Just a moment in my world lol
I made an attempt at getting comfortable at a gallery I belong to and attended a Feb. 14 Art Party where I had a Black and White Pen and Ink / Watercolor hanging as well as Wolf Moon on a special wall our local Watercolor teacher invited her students to show thire piece of winter watercolor. I actually unwound and had fun 🙂
before it got crowded 🙂
I have even been crocheting again
This is for my son’s old girlfriend who got married and is having her first baby. I had so much fun as I had never done any of this type of crocheting before 🙂 yes indeed learning so much than I ever thought I could.
Have a Great Day you can see I have every intent too 🙂
I have added not one but two Watercolors I did to the local Gallery here in Exeter NH that I belong to. Seacoast Artist Association which sits at the end of Swasy Park, downtown.
I have been creating so much art it is crazy but I must not complain as it is good for me to chill with wet paper and my brushes. Working on new website as well in my free time 🙂 http://eunice356.wix.com/artist-painter
Mom had her 5th surgery on her knees yes we have but two so 4 on the right and hopefully the only one just done on her left. I got bad news last week as well seems all the pain in my own knees while caring for her was not just what I was doing I need two knee replacements and I am not 60 for 2 more weeks 😦 Guess I beat the hell out of them jumping out of my rig and with DNA seems it was bound to happen. The dog needs surgery as well so after Mom then her then it will be spring and I will do at least one of mine and heal out in the sun here.
In a few weeks the garden club I am in will attend the Boston Flower Show now if you have been following me for even a little while you know I can not wait though winter so far here in New England has been OK 🙂 some snow and this weekend brutal outside with dangerous windchills but sunny.
Life is moving too quickly at this time of the year I am already missing the long lazy days of summer and all that lovely light.
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving a very long day for me but so worth my effort. Got up early add the cold sausage stuffing to my cold turkey and place it into the oven to roast while I drove down to my Moms to take here and all of her tools like wheel chair, walker and even the toilet well some stand alone one with legs no good for stairs or sitting on chairs with no arms for leverage I wanted her to feel safe here. so one hour down and one hour back safe and sound. She then made the gravy for us and I did more preparing and readying the place for a small feast.
I invited a friend who is in our garden club with me to join us as well. The dog was so happy to have so many people around the table. The meal came out perfect and we had so much to be thankful for as surly you all did. After all the desert had been tried I loaded her things back into the car for the hour ride back south this time I took the dog to keep me company on the way home. Like I said very long day but so happy she could hang out at my peaceful place one more time as it had been years since her last visit shortly after we lost Dad.
On my way back down to Moms my friend and I finished what she had started for decorations around town while Mom and the dog watched from the car. All lit and off we went.
The world is so scary these days and it makes me that much more grateful for days like we enjoyed. I hope you are all safe in light of the world’s uncertainty. Stay aware of your surroundings as the holy holidays are upon us for there are those who want nothing more to take that from us. Lone wolfs or full fledged attacks no one is safe. I hate war. I hate that countries continue to posture and display might to the detriment of so many others. Taking freedoms from anyone is just not right. Can you imagine if there ever was to be Peace On Earth Goodwill Towards Men.
May you be filled with Joy and wrapped in Love we all deserve that.
I also had over 14 inches of hair cut off so I could donate it to #LocksofLove for a child to receive a wig should they want one. I love my new grown-up hair cut lol
but WP not letting me LIKE your posts but will let me comment odd very odd anyone know what I maybe doing wrong?
Mom is now 80. She made it! We all had had our doubts after this long year of medical woes. We took her out to a wonderful place in Salem NH called the Tuscan Kitchen where we all made wonderful food choices and loved them all. They have more openings happening so if you live near one, pop in! Check them out online too maybe just to drool lol I had a half order of 2 different pasta plates one made with butternut squash the other wild mushrooms I was a very happy girl.
So to catch you up even more with this horrific year of failed surgeries and all we did to keep mom safe, I still have no gray hairs as I approach 60 in March, so in a week I will donate my, now very long hair, to Locks for Love. I will go very drastic with either a Pixie, Bob or Stacked Bob hmmmm maybe a Shag. Out with the old in with the new lol I am excited!
I still paint but not as I once did. I have been busy around here(home) what with my man building a race care for my friend, well just the metal parts within to keep him safe, out on the quarter mile track at over 150 mph. I want to take just one run 🙂
I worked this summer with a few of the Garden club members on our local plantings adding Roses and Ornamental Grasses to each planting so they will be less care in the future. I did very little here but mow since we had dry conditions for most of the growing season.
We did take a ride to see Fall Color in Vermont. It was a 400 mile trip that it took days for us to recover from but I want to see my country again so I better work back up to sitting with bent knees a little more so I do not end up like mom.
Hoping I can catch up on your blogs and leave a like if not I will see if I can leave a comment and even get yours.
Here is a few shots I still have on my computer to share.
It is Saturday morning and time for some coffee and run through my blog roll and to let you know life’s twists and turns are still happening but trying to find silver linings all the same.
Mom’s surgery to fuse her leg will be next Wednesday from what she told me about her meeting with surgeon it will be 3 to 4 hours under sedation as they place a rod from her hip down the leg to her ankle wonder how they will account for the inches in height each year 😦 yes I am always left with these type of questions as it is my brother and sister in law that are handling all of moms affairs. I had no car for 2 years so hard to take her to and from constant appointments.
I had a shocking call as well just before the fourth seems I have not heard from my stepson for 2 years and in that time he was addicted to Heroin. What happened to meting friends for some pizza and beer 😦 the call I received was to let me know he had overdosed and was gone. Just 42. Kind of old I thought for such heavy drug use but seems it is all the rage which yes which has me enraged at societies who do nothing to stop the influx of poison on it’s people sort of as if they have the opposite plan 😦 He was laid to rest two days ago no longer will he suffer with feeling so useless and lost that a drug of this caliber could make him feel whole. RIP Jimmy how I wish you were still a little boy.
I still take photos and paint but with all that has been going on it has become somewhat forced as a way to walk away and chill. I like when it is fun and this has not been a god run on fun.
I did enter 2 of my Watercolors in a Themed Art Show “Coastal New England” at Seacoast Art Association just to try one out 🙂 I would rather sell each piece for $45.00 and let the buyer mat and frame to their liking. They will hang till Aug.1st with an Artist Reception on Friday, the 17th though not sure how my mom will come through surgery so I will not plan on attending unless all goes well.
Hope you are all doing better than me man has it been a rough stretch.
Life is hard isn’t it truly I just do not know what will happen next only that my hope is to get through it.
Sorry I have not been here of late Facebook is easy from phone to check on those on my list but I can not blog from it yet.
Still sitting with Mom for 10 hours a day with just under a hour each way to travel from my place not complaining though as it was 2 1/2 hours each way when she was in rehab.
Still sitting is taking a toll on not only my knees but with her still in a cast unable to use her $200,000.00 knee it is getting crazy :(.
Then Friday night my man and best friend called me while I was with mom and said he lost feeling in left arm and hand I thought stroke and begged him to call 911 but he chose to go see his primary care nurse who then called me to inform me they were calling 911 and sending him to hospital mind you I am all alone with mom and unable to leave. I still don’t drink or have gray hair but I swear there may be a chance for both.
Sister in law came in and I took off for home and hospital. First I had to let the pets out and then feed them. I called a friend to bring me to pick up his truck at doctors office then it was time to drive further east to see what was going on with him. It was so late in the day I had just missed him in ER and had to wait till they had him in ICU before seeing him which by the way almost did not happen as visiting hours were now over. I walked in to seeing him lying there and so scared and worried he was not using what little oxygen his heart was making to think clearly he told them he wanted to die. REALLY? Not on my watch! I asked what was wrong and they said one part of his heart was not talking to the other half he was in big trouble and he had already refused a way to help himself. I begged him to stop worrying and let them help him and in the end he did.
They placed a temp. pacemaker to make the two halves of the heart get along I got the call just before 1 AM that it was a success and his heart rate was now 80 and not the 25 I had last seen him with and them with a crash cart ready to save him over and over till a team could be called in on a Friday night to save him.
He hates doctors and hospitals I explained we all do but to be happy when they can fix a problem so dire as him within a hour he should be thanking not only God but all of them who even had me scared.
Last night while getting into the hospital parking lot the phone rings and it is Mom in tears. Seems her 14 year old house cat taken from his home to live with my mom at my brothers place had been allowed to exit the home. He doesn’t know the world outside and as of last night still no kitty. Mom is so sick with worry and I am so sad as I know this will be yet another huge setback in her plan to get well. I always say my prayers for others and never ask anything for myself but today I am asking for no more bad news here or in the world my heart just aches.
So if you think I have been ignoring you I haven’t been I just am never here to catch up with all of you. I hope you are well and staying safe.
My cat better be good she is 14 and wise but there is still evil that lurks waiting to pounce on her 😦
Still no good news about my Mom she is now done with third surgery on new knee only this time she came out with it wired together and is now in a 30 lb fiberglass cast and she has no muscle left after a year and a half in and out of rehab hospitals. We pulled her out of last one because we were scared for her even though we liked the people just not enough help when one is helpless. Just been a plain nightmare for all of us but mostly Mom.
The snow all 8′ of it is just about gone and even with that huge melt we were under a severe red flag warning for fires.
We are getting the place ready for Spring /Summer so much to do but am looking forward to flowers blooming and not the store bought variety I bring Mom.
No bears have stopped by and my male turkey must be off hunting for a bevy of girls lol isn’t life simple at times.
The stress even with Watercolor painting almost daily has done a number on me. 5 pounds gained and no covered with red spots they say is Psoriasis. OH joy itchy, scratching and just trying to smile and de-stress 😦 So many lotions and potions will now be lathered on. I hate it when our bodies fail us.
Sorry not much good news well then again the snow is gone 🙂
Here is one of my latest paintings you can see I am trying to find Peace.
I have been going back and forth to Boston suburbs to visit my mom and when I come home to the snow and a hungry man and cat and dog I am tired. Sometimes I paint a small piece to chill/unwind and de-stress all the worry within as mom doesn’t seem to be moving towards going home which saddens me.
I continue to pray for a miracle that will bring her back home to us and her cat it is all I can do.
Some good news for those who have followed me for a few years my son the artist entered a contest and guess what he WON lol I needed good news 🙂 you can click on this link and read the article and see his winning entry.
My last post sounded so nice right lol well I cooked and prepared for our family feast but so did the weather.
On Wednesday as the last of my cooking was complete the snow began to fall. I even went out with another Garden Club member to hang 30 swags we had made on Sunday throughout the downtown. We were wet and cold but please with the holiday color in town taking shape. We swung in for a cup of hot chocolate to warm us on the ride home. Tomorrow we have 84 tropical Poinsettias arriving for delivery OH BOY! You see Wednesday night we lost all power due to the heavy wet snow and just our first of this soon to be winter season wait it is still fall right.
Today is Sat. and this morning we got the power back It was 32 degrees F. brrr we did have one warm spot in the house the 4 us cuddled up in and lots of veggies as we never did get together with family down the road as they too had no party and moved it 50 miles south so we stayed home and off the nasty roads. Maybe we will get another chance at Christmas.
I painted during daylight with melted snow 🙂 over on Folsom Mill Studio blog I will post the results this is a shot of Spicy Cranberry Sauce I made and second shot of our world today 🙂
Hi Everyone! Our first snow is due to fall between tonight and Monday and they say the winds will be fierce at times 🙂 maybe it will blow it off the roof! Yes tis the season once again one day raking the next shoveling never a dull moment in New England.
We put the yard to bed. Ran the mower out of gas and brought the snow blower up to shed closer to the house and stored the rakes for the garden hoes too and brought up snow shovels and ordered coal to keep us warm. We use propane but they charge an arm and leg and it never keeps this place warm.
I cook and clean and seldom leave the house these days. You know I love making things be it beaded pieces or glass items crocheting even but with painting it is sheer happiness. Not a care or stress just wet and let it go 🙂
Today I completed two pieces I had in different stages of completion and then whipped up a bunch of Abstract Watercolors I will sell for others to mat and frame and cheer up a spot on their wall or table or maybe even a piano!
I will share with you then add to my blog My Portfolio with sizes and prices. It was a stress free first day of November here in NH as I hope it was with each of you.
Take care and thanks for looking I love feed back you know.
I signed up for a free, 6 or 8 week class, presented by a local newspaper here in New Hampshire. It is about writing Memoirs.
It is about TRUTH ( though the publisher of Million Little Pieces could fill you in on more of that)
Our first homework is to write a piece on a harrowing experience lol how do I choose? We could also do it on a person we had a relationship of some kind with and how that changed us. Both tough for me as most of my long time followers know.
She went around and asked us to say why we were there and who we are. There was a 83 year old man who said he came as he would like to tell the story of his family in a fun and lively way I can only hope I make it to that age and have his spunk 🙂
There was another who had written lots of poetry and was interested in this writing form. The lady on my right new our teacher and she was not sure if she wanted some day to write a novel, autobiography or memoir but she was all in. I said I was there to learn the art of telling a sad story and capturing the reader and in the end finding joy in the read 🙂 I am always looking for the Happy Ending. The woman to my left has many amazing stories to tell as she has also lived a life such as mine full of very colorful people. The next lady wrote on her laptop the whole time in class maybe she will write of her day in class as I am 🙂 The last student that arrived a half hour late was close to the other man’s age and seemed to have the same intent leaving a story for those in his family who followed so the story of who they all were would not be lost. I want that too but that will be in a different form I think but this class will teach me a way to keep the reader engaged as they flip the pages of a book I hope to write you know the type old photos, family stories and recipes passed down through the ages. No war stories for me as sadly I fought a long war and it left me broken but here. So yes I had fun and I came home to quickly write three pieces that we will read aloud and discuss so we can learn what to do to make them better. Here on my blog it is easy I am talking to friends.
Now comes the good part she says to me “Eunice you have some extra homework I want you to read Liars Club” lol maybe she didn’t believe me 🙂 Have you read it? Is it good? I must head to the library and see if they have it and hope I can get through it to the end by next Wed. night.
Have a great weekend
I am off to see my son tomorrow and sadly mom has bowed out from the drive down she is just not feeling well with all her medical issues I am sad but OK and he doesn’t know I am going so he will not be disappointed in no meeting her.
I will shoot video of his show and bore you all with too many photos I am sure 🙂
I will also be down the street from the 9-11 Memorial in NYC and maybe as I leave the city for home I can see the lights in the night sky. I continue to pray for Peace around the world and for countries to get along but after the speech last night I am even more scared of the future for our people and the babies coming into the world today.
Today in the States it is Labor Day a day in which we celebrate the worker mostly with yummy BBQ’s Though as I see most retail spaces are open which means the holiday unless celebrated on Sat. and Sun. their days off, well you get the point. I am retired from 100 hour work weeks in a big old truck so I will celebrate for those who can’t. No beer or burgers though but I may roast some yummy New England Sweet Butter Corn on the grill and cut it off the cob and add to my salad. You see having your favorite store of 40 years closed for 6 weeks had me buying takeout or eating weird things, time to watch the waist once again with hopes of whittling it down some more I hate being so inactive I must get strong to battle that damn roof in another 2 months :).
My wish is for September to be kind to all of us we have enough on our mind with the woes of the world and the evil who resides within. Scary times my friends scary indeed.
Stay safe in your travels and I will try my best to keep up with you all.
Taking lots of photos as well just not blogging much.
All is well some may say boring I say wonderful.
What a gorgeous summer we are having just sorry so many others are far from enjoying their weather.
Sunny days we have had
That is after the heavy downpours have moved off towards the coast.
The lawn gets mowed when it reaches 6 inches and is tamed back to 4″ high lol so I can spot SNAKES!
but it has been wet enough down here to grow these and many other different varieties.
Speaking of Turkey just my 6 boys stopping by for breakfast and dinner a few seeds and lots of bugs! Miss my girls and their fluffy chicks but the hawks are never far from here and we have lots of unsafe open space for chicks to be snatched.
So I will enjoy the summer and prepare for fall. Too soon to discuss that horrid season 🙂 JT’s favorite to walk the beach in truth be told mine to for that activity it is the shoveling I could do without 🙂
Have a wonderful weekend and stay safe where ever you may be.
Not much going on in my world of late been kind of a slow easy pace which is always nice isn’t it. We are all fine and Mom is back driving herself!
This is really what I would call the last month of summer in my part of the world and I intend to enjoy every moment. I will hit the steams for gold and the beaches for coins and rings. I will take a few photos lol and yes I will continue to try and be the best Watercolor painter ever 🙂 well from where I sit! I am not sure how others feel after painting but I am exhausted after 3 or 4 hours. I hope as I learn more that will lessen.
The few items I planted are producing nicely but miss my garden full of goodies. My favorite place to shop has been shut down pretty much for a month as the owners and CEO bicker back and forth, you may have read about it or seen it on your local news as it is that big of a story. Sad the place will never be the same I fear. I had been traveling 10 miles each way to shop there till they opened one in my town. We will see what happens now as they are loosing so much money and customers.
Well that is pretty much all that is happening in my world these days so I will settle in to enjoy August to the fullest as there will be Sept and Oct to prepare this place for that other season.
So what is new in your world? My life is quiet but never boring 🙂
Wildlife visit in droves even with hundreds of acres of land surrounding me they still want to be up close and personal with me lol what’s up with that! I was outside just now talking on the phone with Mom she is doing awesome by the way she may drive tomorrow when I get down there, and I had 6 huge male wild turkey making pretty sounds talking to me asking for seed 🙂 even with the dog and cat there they knew they were safe I like the young being brought here and calling my place home but I sent them off to search for ants and beetles ticks too like wild turkeys are supposed to do. Yesterday before heavy rains began to fall they were along the edge of the property here pulling fresh raspberries one after another I am just worried those Black Bear are on the other side of the vegetation, ten foot wide or more in some parts, eating their way inward towards me 🙂 I must buy a can of compressed air made to scare bears away as these ones have become so bold and I do not want us to get hurt or one to die needlessly.
I must get a few new lens for the Nikon so I can capture better detail. This is a mix of 4 different cameras hope you enjoy a poke around the place 🙂
Enjoy the rest of July
Off to read more of your wonderful blogs I really do hope you are al truly OK I miss being here 2 and 3 times a day
Mom is hurting with swollen legs once again but they say she is OK not sure what is going on but I will go as often as I can the 45 miles south and back till it resolves or I am broke :). She is doing good except for this issue so we will see what they have in store for her next.
We tried to sell a few things yesterday at a yard sale in Maine but not too many buyers were out so money spent trying is at best crazy 🙂 I think I will cut my beaded bracelets up and place seed beads into their containers and use them in just two different types of beading projects and then charge triple 🙂
I will focus on Photography and Watercolor painting and getting the ones I love the best ready for a showing of just my pieces. Time to strip old frames and lay down fresh paint on them to make the photos POP. Not sure I will want this artist reception but I do want sales to help with my future.
Just finished catching up with over 300 more blog posts 🙂 I am trying but life seems to keep me from doing what I love to do a lot of the time so trying to relax and enjoy a nice Sunday night with all your pretty words and pictures. WOW so many and I thought I was prolific 🙂
We are all fine yes even Mom though she is causing us to turn grey and I have none! She is independent I know that doesn’t surprise any of you who know who I am. She has a list though of things she can do and a bigger list of NO GO! seems she has lost them in her hurry to get strong for us.
Reality is no setting in watching my Mom age is not going to be easy for me not saying it should be but if only she would just kick back and relax so we can 😦 she says she will just scrape this one off really is that how cancer is remove last piece took 8 stitches 😦 Where your sunscreen! I bought my first bottle in a lifetime and being blonde blue eyed you know I was looking for trouble maybe she can scrape away wrinkles too 🙂
I have painted and planted in between time with Mom some photos too if you follow me on Facebook or G+ I am sure you have seen them as I post easy from phone for family and friends to see but I will add a couple here for you to see 🙂
Hope you are all well
Now the next one is of my cat who is 13 I think she is pretending to be TAKE OUT! I brought this box home with some annuals and she sleeps in it all the time we are out side 🙂
I will take her cat the same age as mine to the vet tomorrow after I take mine first thing in AM mine comes outside with us and hers got just Mother’s day on a leash though now he is always trying to get outside we created a MONSTER 🙂
JT hates summer being Black and all so we play in early morning outside and evening what’s one more bite mark on me. I have had over 40 ticks and my man the same but the dog had one and the cat 4 looks like we should try Frontline too! I even had to take a one time dose for tick bites. The lawn has been mowed 5 times so far and really just to keep the Lyme carrying ticks at bay.
I saw a few butterflies whip through the yard but not enough in bloom to keep them here lots of rain and cool temps till this week has stalled things a bit.
The yard is filling in nicely, birds are loving the place and all the food the bears have left for them to devour
They found more cancer on my face last week really I am the one finding them anyone need a free cancer screening for basil cell 😦
Just checking in and reading blogs I follow adding a like to say I have Been There!
I have been busy as always here in thee yard then again not as busy as when I am putting in a huge garden this year they are growing in pots as I did not know how surgery would go. No longer do I set myself up for disappointment yes I can still find myself there but not of my doing. 🙂
Mom is doing good! We went down to have dinner with her and I moved things up and away she doesn’t need right now and lowered items to make it easy for her to reach while holding onto the walker. She is doing so much better I swear I never would see her come back as she has it reminds me of the will to live and how truly strong it is.
Truly everyday is indeed Saturday for the two of us, well the pets too! I know I am funny but it is true, being retired and me disabled we have nowhere to go. We get up when we want and hit the bed when our eyes will not longer stay open.
I was thinking about this as I continued to plug away here in the yard, trying the best I could on my own to ready this place for summer as he decided he would do the maintenance on our truck. It is a huge undertaking when it is a Honda. Back 30,000 miles ago he was supposed to change the timing belt well he started yesterday at 10 AM and stopped at 7 pm and back out there this morning by 9 or 9:30. He will do the water pump at the same time. I suggested we trade it in as it looks beautiful and runs great as I knew it would be very involved, sad thing is we are stuck here no matter what happens to JT or Mom or even us, as I sold my van a year and a half ago and my pickup sits with a leaking, ruined transmission still. So I will keep my fingers crossed he does a great job on her and we can go see my Mom over the REAL weekend. She is to coming home tomorrow! I am so happy.
I went to bed really tired and hurting last night but got a great nights sleep and got so much done, so it was a good tired. This morning I had my yummy healthy breakfast and prepared for a full day in the yard but first the house. Dishes and floors! Then time to get outside with JT and my shovel and rake and her toys. I decided I would regain my front driveway after many years of plowing and leaves piled up. So long in fact it was now rich soil, I love free dirt! See where the new dirt is there were deep ruts all along the drive.
It had begun to get so small of an entrance so I worked further up out of this shot and dug all of that out and took 5 loads in the wheel barrel around back to another spot I am trying to build up and add plants that will set out roots to hold it all up. I am now thinking I should have got a pallet of cement blocks but I am so frugal I used boards from my old chicken coop and fence posts to hold it all in place till I can afford to have a few loads of clean fill added under the green growth of bushes and trees to take back more of my land that all the flooding year after year has swiped from this beautiful piece of land. I will add a pretty tree that sends out deep roots and add here too but I will prune so it stays away from the house.
This was at one time all level with the backyard not the lower yard though, just never so dramatic, so I will do this in stages, yes pace myself, add a little soil and a tree then add bulbs for spring as this is on the south side of the house nice and warm. I may get some blocks designed for this for the section you can see from the front driveway just to give it a finished look and not wooden pallet and boards 🙂 maybe I will add a bird bath here as the center piece once soil has had a chance to pack down and I can make it good and level.
All the while I worked and JT played this is what we got to watch in the river
Maybe you can’t see it but there was a Great Blue Heron working the river, thankful for the dam being pulled so it could fish once again. I love that they love my place and feel safe to raise young with the rest of the critters that do.
I worked for so many years 80 to 100 hours each week out on the roads dealing with all drivers do, to have a place like this, so for me it is worth the hard work to keep it and as much as it’s beauty as possible.
Some flowers in bloom here today
Yes I am blessed but thankful for the rains that began to fall so I could put my feet up and write to you. I will hit another 50 blogs hope one is yours 🙂
So far behind I saw I have 300 of your blogs I have yet to see. Getting this place squared away is becoming a full time job and all I want to do is create. Don’t feel bad 🙂 I work around here potting up flowers and cutting the lawn and am now thing of building a set of stairs leading down to the lower yard so I can weed whack easier. We had a small straight tree fall one day and it has laid where we left it after cutting off all the limbs it is time for me to re-purpose. I will make some cuts into the hill and add a piece of tree then cut a little further down and do another level till I am at the bottom and have used the whole tree! Yes eventually it will rot and become one with the soil but it’s OK by then I will not want to mow this place anymore. My man misses mowing so I have him do things around here I can’t. Like he is taking the pieces from our gazebo and re-purposing them into a structure I can use as a greenhouse. I will ask him to dig a root cellar too! He has taken apart a generator for one piece to use on our windmill so we can do away with that bank of HUGE batteries and go direct from wind to plug I like the idea of living green and using things till they are trash and even then I recycle them into their proper container at the town dump.
Update on Mom she finds out today if she can come home which means I will go stay with her for 5 days a week at her home. I will cook and clean for her. I will take her through her rehab moves and get her to appointments and do shopping for her. My brother needs rest and less worry he is not well and if I can do this for the two of them it is the least I can do. Since Dad died we have not been a close family pain and hurt and loss can do that or in some families it can make your stronger. I will do all I can and not kick myself for things I can’t. I have come a long way in a year and for that I am so grateful.
Just got word from son that the piece he sent to NYC Art Museum for a auction to help the gallery sold for more than $6,000.00 my wish is that he now sees himself as a true artist and not a troubled soul. Good news from all sections of my life and yet more reasons to be filled with joy.
The birds greet me each morning with beautiful songs and the bears have not bothered us for awhile but I bring in seed for the night but then mice came in for seed and cat worked overtime 🙂 all is finally right and hole repaired! Way I see it if a mouse can come in so can a SNAKE and that will not happen on MY WATCH!
I have been taking photos and adding them into my online stores with early morning coffee while the home is full of sleeping sounds from the three of them and in the evenings while watching my music shows The Voice and American Idol I paint. I am trying to do a body of work as my teacher asked me to do. I have chosen trees for now but have no idea of the best way to preserve them and keep them clean and ready to share when I am ready. If you are an artist how do you do this? I am too prolific to fame each piece and really just want them ready so when asked to show portfolio they look as nice as when I signed them. Not sure what to do. Most of mine are made to float not for mats. So much easier to take a photo and sell them as prints or as a shower curtain or some bedding or maybe a card. 50 to 100 pieces of Watercolor Art is ALOT how do you do it?
I will leave you with one I just did and a photo or two of my flowers and my wish for you all here in the US is for a safe and wonderful Memorial Day weekend it will be my BLOGS anniversary when I first met some of you dear friends another reason for gratitude. For those in other countries you know I wish you well and what ever the weather in your part of the world I hope you are enjoying it and getting out as well. Life is too short to let it fly by.
I am working on catching up with as many of you as I can. Have a great week!
Hi everyone! Can you believe it is already mid May I want to stop the clock now days are going to fast! I have had so many things going on as you know so I wanted to let you know things truly are a little better. Mom was removed from hospital and they found a bed in a rehabilitation place for her to get help with horrid pain and get her on her feet to recovery. Pain is a life changer if you have dealt with it you know what I mean some days you just don’t think life is worth living and we are grateful she now does. I have not really been close to my brother since Dad died he went his way in sadness and me in mine but on Mother’s Day we had a great one! He even snuck in our Mom’s cat which I swear was the turn around in her sadness that and we laughed together for 4 hours it really is the best medicine isn’t it.
I did not ask if I could make them famous with adding their photos here so I won’t but they are just what my heart needed. I am so blessed and grateful for all the prayers said.
The yard is coming back slowly but surly after one nasty winter. I have mowed one section the part down alongside the river twice already. The bears are causing a ruckus up and down the roads in the area I call home. The birds are full of the sweetest sounds. You can not help but feel joy when sounds of nature fill you head from sun up till sun down.
Why do I paint the house lol for them to move in I guess. I am happy they love my place just wish they were not so messy 🙂
Yes I am still taking photos but I have been painting up a storm as well, no surprise for you all I am sure :).
I received a message from a friend that she wanted to commission me for a piece of Artwork. I laughed and said “I am no artist” I am just chilling 🙂 She insisted she wanted me to do a painting with just two trees with a lively background so I whipped out 2 watercolors for her to choose from. They are for her granddaughter’s 2 nd birthday she is creating an art collection for her. With each passing birthday she will acquire a work of art depicting the age she will be in the subject matter. This will not be an easy thing in my eyes to pull off after 5 🙂 so this year being 2 she wanted two trees from me. I did them on 11×15 in the vertical way on 140lb paper. I will let you see.
Now for the finished products I think lol she better come quick!
It was stressful to make something for someone personal but I am sure in time I can relax more and just do my thing.
I thank you for the follows and hope you have a wonderful weekend! It will rain here damn I wish I could send it west to put out all the fires but since I can’t I will clean the house, paint and see Mom.
Stopping in to say hello to all of you wonderful bloggers and followers. I have had no computer issues just trying to clean up the place from a nasty winter and a year of shoulder pain. A month ago was the surgery and yes I know I can not expect miracles but seems in some positions it is better and others there is horrid pain where there wasn’t any before surgery I still have two weeks to go before seeing the doctor to get my questions addressed so I continue with my Physical Therapy and keep trying to get back more use with less pain. Life is good though.
We have been doing some repairs here on the weather-beaten house and 4 more bags of concrete and a few more fires and the yard will be ready to enjoy. I shall share with you two shots of the yard from today May 1, also a photo of my watercolor I have been trying to get to my liking seems I never am DONE 😦 I swear I am NOT a perfectionist lol. When I showed my work I have been doing to my teacher Marina(3 classes now)she said “PUT THESE ON FABRIC!” so I did over in my Zazzle store. I added this one of trees onto an oblong pillow.
Then she gave me homework of sorts. A mission actually. She thought I should FOCUS lol who me 🙂 and begin work on a Body of Art. 50 to 100 paintings of Trees in the Forest different colors but always add my Birch Trees. She loves them. I love making them so this will be easy for me to focus on then she wants me to find fabric people to sell them too. I told her I am good at sharing but not good at selling anything but my ability to drive a rig. She then said wouldn’t you love to see this in a leather drivers seat? Now that in a shiny black rig would keep you awake wouldn’t it 🙂 I am happy just painting and not thinking about pain. I have added it to a canvas print and pillow so we will see if it is just her and I who love trees 🙂
I am saying a prayer for all of you to stay safe and healthy out there. So many places are destroyed here in the US I can not help but think we need to live differently and be kinder to our place we call home. So many trees and vegetation taken down for more and more homes and businesses just plain crazy what will hold our beautiful countryside together. Washington State had a landslide, where my son lives in JH WY has a huge slide as well and now AL and FL hurting once again never mind Washington DC with flooding. Seems we keep taking hit after hit, tornadoes flattening whole communities and townships. Lives lost. Plant a tree for me if you can, be a rebel, pick a spot where it will be able to dig deep into the earth and be a place of beauty for many years to come. We need to save our earth we need green space and most of all we need to breathe.
Here is my world today May 1 2014
Heavy rains no yard work today off to my PT and then home to clean the house and PAINT the yard work can wait till Saturday hoping you all have a wonderful weekend. Stay safe out there.
http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2014/04/03/prompt-back-door/ So they say to describe our view out the back door or window to a stranger not sure any who stop here any more are strangers. You have all seen the barn where I like to hide and do my Art work. You have seen this place from up on the roof when it is covered with many feet of snow in winter.Most if they have been here have seen the wild birds and pretty flowers too. So how would I describe this place to a stranger from another world? Simply stated these days it is my piece of Heaven on Earth
The last day of March I was not allowed a midnight snack as I would finally go in to have the shoulder addressed.
April Fool’s Day no wonder I was moved up no one else wanted to take a chance I on the other hand was hoping for less pain and more use.
I had PT the next day yes real quick and tomorrow the stitches come out and more work twice a week for 6 to 8 weeks will begin in earnest.
I have a ice cuff I put on after exercises so I have no need for medication.
Life is good!
My son had another show last night in WY and I sat at home painting Roses he had Rose Art to sell and neither of us planned any of it I just decided to chill before surgery with a few hours of painting with a Artist from Russia that lives here locally in NH her name is Marina Forbes.
So all is well just been doing nothing much at all really
Today the plan is to ride down into the city and meet one of the Bloggers I met when I first started mine here. Maybe a quick lunch somewhere and my man can hunt the coastline and JT can meet one of her admirers 🙂 I will stop by my Moms on way out of Boston as she just had a procedure the same day I did.
Love to all of you
Eunice 😦 too much rain and snow melt and a bum arm to pull a beaver damn out with
What I did before surgery they did not turn out looking like the Rose in my course but I relaxed and that was my only mission in all that pain
The best day for me to linger would be the day the horrid winter, truly gives up it’s strong hold and allows spring to arrive with all of it’s beauty.
You know the kind of day, snow banks filthy from too many months of winters cold, when the earth lets out a sigh and you witness it begin to drink up the moisture that once would only allow more ice to form. When the frost beneath the yard was just too thick to allow for drainage of any kind to begin. It is the kind of day I wait so long for. I hear about it coming on the news and I get ready. I bring out the table and chair from the barn, yes we are tough here up in the northeast.
As the morning arrives I will be ready. The sun will come up and greet me at the kitchen window, beside the coffee maker where I will stand and wait for it to finish all the while I will soak in the first rays of this special day. By the second cup JT and I will make our way to the table and chair lying in wait for me to sit and linger.
The birds will be signing their absolute prettiest tunes and the Apple tree will have swollen buds as will the Forsythia. This is how I will spend each morning after that first day of warmth, lingering in the yard with my girl, soaking in the suns warmth only from now on with sunscreen.
Having got to the age I am, there are many things others can not make me believe for I have found the truth in living.
That the words our country rises and stands for, All Men Are Created Equal is a lie. All you have to do is step out onto the streets of where you live and it is there for you to see, if you open your eyes.
I believe in my heart there are without a doubt just plain evil people who walk among us, as I found myself married to such a person of ill intent, mostly towards himself as a man but sadly it spilled over onto all he said he loved.
The final one of these things I believe in my heart to be false is believing it is what it is. It is not!. We can change for the better and for the better of all mankind, yes it is not easy but life isn’t but one thing for sure is that you can change yourself, the place you call home and little by little the world we share.
As I wake to this world I am apart of each day I am struck by it’s beauty. Now you know I hate the snow and the extra work we need to do in order to clear it from our path but you know I adore the land.
So first off without a doubt I believe in God. I know without a doubt as it is hard to at times when we look out at all the evil that abounds. It pains me to see hurt and destruction and so much loss but I believe in God.
I also believe that if man continues to destroy this earth at the rate it has been we won’t exist as a planet for thousands of years to come.
Now they ask for three things we believe in on this challenge and for me I will end on a lighter note.
I know without a doubt each animal I have shared my life with has loved me as much as I loved them.
Be kind to one another and to God’s animals as surly all you need to do is look at a full bird feeder to see so many others can get along with each other.
Daily Prompt: Time After Time Traditions: we’ve all got ‘em. They might be family dinners on special occasions, or having a particular kind of cake on your birthday (Jeanne Cake, natch), or popcorn at the movies, or meeting your friend for a 5k run in the park, rain or shine, every Sunday morning. What are your favorite traditions, large and small? What is it about your traditions that keep them going strong for you?
You made me think this morning Daily Prompt 🙂
I grew up with so many Family Traditions. We used to go to both sides of our family, for holidays. They would split them up so we would know our Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles as well as our Cousins. Many miles were laid down. Traveling from our state to theirs. Even with family scattered our parents made the effort for us to be together. I never knew there was any other way to live.
Flash forward fifty eight years from yesterday and really I have no real family. No closeness. Brothers, well two of them, moved to the south and one lives 20 minutes from me but I may as well be on the other side of the world. He is the baby, now 40+ years old but clearly in charge of our mom. I was born first and always cared for the three of them but since dad passed away ten years ago I have been left to make my own traditions as each holiday comes around.
Traditions are a part of each of us, be it currant or just a memory.
I now place a large turkey in the oven, stuffed with deliciousness, no longer getting dressed to see the family for holidays but getting dressed to head out the door. I go for walks with the dog and my special guy. We time it perfectly to arrive back home, as a turkey really just needs one nice basting to crisp up the skin, so it will look beautiful as I sit it at the table for two well the cat and dog will be allowed some on their plates when dinner is done. I make all the traditional side dishes from my childhood and some he remembers as well, see he has no family left at all. We have each other. We happily set out making new traditions together.
Tonight I will make a favorite from Bourbon Street
Jambalaya, I will pass on the King Cake as I am already
Sunday was my best friends birthday who I heard each year
growing up say “I’m 3 days older than you! Well I would remind her
when she turned 50 I would still be 49 🙂 Just keeping it real even back then.
Next week the skin cancer on my face will be removed and then I have to take my marriage certificate to the government agency in order to prove I am entitled to my ex-husband SS check. I was told he passed away after Christmas. So many things I could say but it is best to just pray he now rests in peace as now I finally can.
Not sure I will be any better off financially, as I do not know what he has been doing for work if anything, since last seeing him in 1997. Even $10.00 more each month will cover one month electricity each year.
I have been thinking I want to build a Coyote/Hawk proof chicken coop, on skis or wheels, so they can safely free range the property eating all the bugs from one spot to the next. Eggs are a big part of my diet. You see protein helps to keep you full and satisfied longer than empty carbs say like a bag of chips 🙂 I have a friend who is a Body Builder and has been a inspiration to get back into shape pain or no pain and she devourers a dozen a day! I could also sell them for $3.50 a dozen for Organic Eggs and still have plenty for me and cover the cost of anything I would feed them over what they find in the yard.
Can you just picture me outside with my Watercolors watching the chickens peck the ground and clucking all day while that cute little Border Collie begs for yet another toss of her FRISBEE, yes friends life is good, well till I look outside and see RELAITY! It is below 0 temps F and snow up to my head or higher in some piles but seeing where some gradual melt has occurred under trees up on the sunny hill, where there is DIRT!
We have had a few days where it got warm, well warm after what we have dealt with. Then we had ice and I mean horrible stuff! We would chop and chop when the sun warmed it and then while we rested each evening, it would freeze up all over again.
I know before long it will be just and ugly memory. Soon we will be seeing joy spread across our country and gardens bloom once again. It will fill us with hope and warmth, which is where I am at today.
Some of you who follow me on Facebook know the story, as do most who have read my stories from long ago. You know I got hurt bad but I survived. I have loved and lost only to love again. It really is just basic life isn’t it. Ups and downs, give and take.
Well the electric bill is so high and 100 gal. of propane cost over $440 and lasts but 3 weeks if we are lucky. We live on a fixed income, as we are both retired and the checks we get each month are divided up for all of our bills. Sometimes we can do something fun and other times we find fun close to home. We are better off than many but still poor when it comes to income brought in, so when they refused to bring me more propane on Friday or even to let me order another 100 gal.because we had a $160.00 balance and no income till 8 days later I had to ask the town for help and then I had to do what I tried not to do. I had to ask for fuel assistance.
Now if you know me you know that it angers me to have to request help. I am hit by someone doing something wrong and left unable to make the income I used to depend on and they go about their business, still driving a bus and making good money. I guess I go from angry to sad but on this day something changed. I mentioned to the woman taking our application for help that maybe when I hit 60 I could get the Social Security I worked so hard for, as I was the surviving spouse. She looked at me and asked if they said those exact words to me and I answered yes. She asked me to go home and call the government office as she believed it meant my ex-husband had died and I was entitled to it now. Well I did and they confirmed he had indeed passed away and I would now get his check if it was more than mine. So I made an appointment for after my birthday and in between surgeries to bring in my marriage certificate into them so they had proof we were married the required amount of years. Now remember I drove a rig over three million miles and worked hard and missed out on so many things others enjoyed, because I LOVED trucking. So once I go in with this certificate, I will find out if I can come off State aid and really that is all I am praying for. I want to be independent again.
While going through paperwork looking for a piece of paper I thought I had thrown away in 1995 I came across so many documents I would no longer need. So out came the paper shredder and I began to rid myself of all that really no longer mattered. With each piece that got fed through the blades, the weight of it all was not only freeing but sad. I guess after having a restraining order for over 15 years on him and holding on to all of our records just in case I would need them was 14 years too long. I made a dent in the massive boxes of trucking paperwork we had amassed in our 15 years of marriage. The first load was placed into the compost bin where it will sit and be covered by kitchen scraps and breakdown into something good. It will become beautiful rich soil, for new life to grow in. I could not think of a better way to deal with all of this.
So with all of this on my plate I will wander in and out of my blog adding a new one here or there as time allows for and a few interesting blogs from those I follow. I will do more of this purging and cleaning and letting go and spend my days feeling free from worry. I will smile more I am sure. I am sad he destroyed so much and in the end himself but I will pray for him to finally be able to rest in peace, as it is what I wish for each and every troubled soul.
I will continue to read your blogs in my readers, WP and Feedly and try to keep up, as I love you all and what you do is important. You keep it real, you show us pretty places and you write so eloquently. I love the poetry and the stories you tell and I will forever be thankful for the kindness you have shown me. I am not going anywhere just trying to get my act and home in order so I can have the procedures done and put my feet up in the sun with all of you and enjoy what life has in store.
Look in the mirror. Does the person you see match the person you feel like on the inside? How much stock do you put in appearances?
Photographers, artists, poets: show us MIRRORED.
Great question put forth by the Daily Prompt. I would have to say most days as I get ready, in front of the mirror and I see myself in the harsh light of day, I am exactly who I appear to be but once I step out of that bathroom and begin my day I am so much younger and still full of dreams yet to come. I stay out of that room as much as I can so I guess I would say in the end I place no stock into who I see in the mirror of mine. 🙂
Yes pretty for those of you not having to SHOVELI IT! So pretty just to sit and chill looking at folks like me stuck in New England when their hearts are missing the south!
Remember this view?
This one too
Welcome to my world today! Just 24 hours later. The saying here goes “Don’t like the weather, wait a minute!”
Now once again a winter wonderland
Shoveling for the dog and the birds once again.
Heavy wet stuff had the boughs weighed down badly
It came down to beat the band!
This was were the ducks swam yesterday in the pretty sunshine.
Look what he got to move for it’s maiden voyage 🙂
Messing around while I had my feet up waiting to go out for round 3
Yes they came to the feeders to fill up
The Apple Tree had all kinds of birds on it as the truck or snow thrower or me with my camera spooked them
I am not lying when I say I want YESTERDAY BACK!
Then again I want tomorrow to come too as our very handsome New England Patriots Quarterback will be in Denver to play against Manning. Sure hope they don’t stop to get high well any higher than the Mile High, at the stadium. GO PATS!!!!!
What do girls born and raised in New England do on a warm winter’s day? Well if they own a home and dream of spring days in mid January they go outside! It was in the forty’s yesterday and the sunshine felt good. I dressed warm enough for a little exercise never knowing how much I would actually do as I began.
Now if you are a follower of Living and Lovin you know I love my wild birds. Last year over 300 pounds of just the black oil sunflower seeds were devoured. That is enough for me to use them as dependents on my IRS Tax Form! We the winter is in full swing and they are once again depending on me to help them through. So on this gorgeous day it was time to clean up some of the mess they made as the snow was gone in most parts from where I hang their feeders and spread seed on the ground for all who do not fly up to the many feeders here. What a mess there was of empty shells. So here it was mid January and I had a rake one used for raking leaves in the fall and a snow shovel and a ice chopper. Yes we need many tools when you own a home in New England. I raked the piles up and then picked them up to shovel over the edge where the ducks and ground birds could pick out the corn and unopened shells.
This is one of the piles I was able to shovel and scatter below in the Lilacs and other small bushes.
Seasons here often get mixed up. As you can see by two of the tools I used a lot.
Then it was time to chop ice and do I mean CHOP I hurt so bad after three hours but you see it was going to go back to winter so I had to do all I could.
The yard is so flooded by the beavers downstream my yard ruined once again by the release of a lake in a river that no longer flows downstream. So I had ducks here, three pairs of Mallards.
Snow and sun and no cropping of this shot but you see what I mean. I came in and wrote the State of New Hampshire a note saying to clean the river out of my yard and added lots of pretty photos hope it works.
I grabbed a few wheat thins and a glass of water and some yummy humus for a snack then packed up the cameras and JT and went to the shore. I figured a nice ride after all the work I did and a walk with my best girl at the beach would make me feel better well I hurt real bad on way home but had a beautiful early evening there as her and I walked. I stopped going to Weight Watchers so it is important to stick with the plan and exercise to keep all I have lost OFF even if it KILLS ME 🙂 She found a nasty looking tennis ball for me to throw and I thankfully placed her stick I had been kicking into my back pocket. She always finds treasures just like us. We are a perfect family.
How is that for a pretty way to end a backbreaking day. There are huge seals out on those rocks enjoying the day just like us.
There were even surfers who wanted to get out and enjoy a warm January day
It was nice but not that nice! 🙂
Now today it is snowing to beat the band as they say in these parts and no matter if I am ready to shovel or not I must. I will try to remember the beautiful night along the shore and when the storm is but a memory head right back over there.
Sorry so many posts lately, as I post too my Custom Pieces blog I also re-blog here and over on 20 Lines D Day.
Want to keep you up with what I am doing to get through the winter months. Photography and Jewelry making and selling them as well.
I had to go see the skin doctor yesterday for my shot and I really thought I would be in and out. Stupidly I asked a question of her “What’s This?” she precedes to tell me we will know for sure when the results come back on the procedure she is about to do. HUH ? Me the SUN LOVIN GIRL? I will not stress and I will start to behave. I am just a few years from 60, YIKES did I say that! I am so NOT 60 LIKE 🙂 That used to be so OLD!!! ! Wait so many of you who I adore are also over 50 so maybe I AM, damn how did that happen lol so yes I am going to continue to have FUN!
After we left we headed towards the sea I always feel better when I can walk and breath in the smells from the salty air. I felt it was right to go there as it is where all the sun damage came from.
I hooked JT to her pretty leash and put a camera into my pants pocket and one around my neck just incase. I know, I am laughing too, when don’t I not put it up to my eye.
Her and I could not legally go onto the beach here with her Daddy, you know the rule breaker I am, well today I was not going to push that envelope. Be good Eunice. So off we went for our walk along the coastal route even though darkness was close I had light colors on so we should be safe though an awful lot of drunk drivers take this road so I was extra careful to keep a watchful eye on my little black pup. I had said to him maybe I will see the sunset and he laughed and said it is already almost done, you won’t see anything except maybe the moon if we stay late enough. Doubting Thomas he is! See I know this world I live in and yes had I been at my regular spot it may have been better in some way but again I was on a beach I spent every day on in my 20’s where sunburns, really bad ones, were this norm for this blonde, blue eyed girl.
As we started out JT found a stick for me to kick for her to scamper after and pick up and give for me to throw again and again or she would drop it up ahead and I would kick and she would chase on her long leash, yes I held it with my good side. Left shoulder too trashed and painful to chance it. So up along the Mansions we went, very few with signs of life in them as it is winter and if you are rich why would you stay.
Well since he said the sun had done it’s thing I was surprised to see how pretty it actually was here along the east coast where she rose less than 12 hours prior. Let me show you!
That box you see off in the distance on the right side of photo is not for birds it is an alarm in case the Nuclear Plant down the street fails then these alarms which are all over the area, will go off letting the residents run for their cars and make a run for a safer place not that I think it will really matter if a Nuke Plant has a failure. None of us will ever be safe.
These are out of order as you can see two different cameras as well this was the start of the walk with JT
This was why he said I was too late and that is him heading out onto the beach.
A view out to sea that we saw as we climbed the hill on our walk.
So much better in person I really wish I had taken some classes on how to take pretty photos as the light disappears.
Yes you can clearly see it is cold in New England.
I loved the color this turned as the light from the setting sun set the scene.
Just a stunning way to end a day or in my case as the sun comes up or hangs around all day or it sets I love this gorgeous Sun we have to make our life feel so much better, yes I swear it is where I get my Sunny Outlook on LIFE!
I am going to try this challenge : Zero to Hero 30-Day Blog Challenge so for some of you who already are following I will bore you. since many of you have been with me since the start but for this challenge I have to introduce myself and blog to potential new followers.
My Blog is called Living and Loving and my name when I set this up was NUTSFORTREASURE but now most of my followers know me as Eunice, from New Hampshire. We are a very friendly bunch I only wish there was a way to meet up with everyone in one spot and have a beautiful visit and party. It would surly be talked about for many years to come, I am sure of it.
When I started this journey within these pages, now known as posts, it was a long Memorial day weekend and I was needing to learn to Live and Love again, hence the name. See it was me getting ready to LIVE AGAIN and I am on my way thanks to so many others I have here to follow. They are so supportive even if they have only time to leave a Like. 🙂
I am supposed to tell you what my blog is about and all I can say is life. Laughter, tears, joy and sadness can all be found here interspersed with lots of photos and re-blogs of others beautiful blogs and some pretty tasty recipes to try. I see me as a person who likes to share pretty things as the world has enough ugly stuff going on.
I share crafts I do as well as life with my beautiful Border Collie JT, just the sweetest female dog who came into our lives at just the perfect time.
I will be changing some things on my blog as this challenge is supposed to do that. So bear with me as I work it out.
My intention is to stay in touch with all who I adore here but I love meeting new people too, the hard part is keeping up with everyone so I will get a new computer by the end of April so I can continue to keep in touch.
Welcome to all new followers and thanks to those who have watched me grow, I am sure you know by now how much I love you all
This is just the view to the west from my homes roof see all the snow cleared for dog and birds OUCH today was the roofs turn to get cleared. It took 2 hours of constant shoveling to rid all but the south side of the home from 12 Inches of the white stuff WHEN IS SPRING? It is snowing right now and they say maybe another 8″ which is why I was up here
Tonight I am resting up for what they say will be a doozy. Some say 5 inches and others say 12 inches of white fluffy snow will blanket our yard by morning now if you know me I will hope for the 5 inches.
Tonight I went and met up with two of the other members of our garden club for a decadent treat at a new place in town. It was worth every penny! It was funny to leave the house without my boyfriend and my little girl JT but to put my hair up and put a clean outfit on and take off into the snowy night felt like the old days.
I made more jewelry today as I got up each hour to throw out more seed for the Doves, Juncos, Cardinals, sparrows, nuthatches etc. as the little finches hogged the feeders all day hardly letting a seed get by them and dropping to the ground. As I worked on my pieces and watched them frantically eat and eat I knew we going to get nailed by this storm. squirrels’ had been here till 3 PM then they went to their nests. Wonder where all my beautiful birds will spend the night I surly hope in the dense forest behind the house. It was a balmy 16 degrees at 5 PM tonight and only getting colder from that point on. When I woke this morning it was 0 degrees. Sadly winter is upon us yes it will be pretty to look at and I promise you will see some photos as you know me. They will not be perfect but they will tell the REAL STORY.
My shoulder is feeling OK as I had yet another shot on Wednesday. I have an appointment with surgeon to have bicep repaired when I call uncle or spring is on our doorstep you see winter is here and my home and yard require more than just one set of hands and legs to keep it clear and safe. I think I taught my doctor something I hope he remembers for many years to come that not everyone has the money to pay others to do all that needs to be done. I left in tears with him saying he would worry about me on the roof but that he now understood more about the kind of woman I was. I do not shirk responsibilities hurt or healthy.
Back to fun stuff want to see?
I also took out a tree skirt I made as a teenager yes it is ancient and some ornaments I did back then. Perfect night for it belly full of yummy cake snow falling an inch per hour or maybe a little more and the dog at my feet as I write this post. When I come in from shoveling tomorrow morning I will upload some photos for you to see.
Wanted to pop in and say Hello, to all those who still follow me. I am trying to keep up as I slow down.
We are bracing for the winter onslaught to hit and till it does we are trying to prepare the best we can. Order more propane so the truck won’t get stuck, while he is delivering it. Pulling beaver dams so we do not lose all I worked so hard for, THE HOUSE. JT and Rhythm are good. My sweetheart is still getting the old 54/55 Dodge buttoned up to help with snow removal, yesterday we ran 35 miles away to pick up a new heater fan, now to locate defroster hose, in the size needed, so we can keep windows in this old beast clear so he doesn’t destroy the yard. I hate what the plow does to the land but I hate shoveling in pain even more, so we will do what we have to with light shovels on the roof, maybe find a used electric snow thrower for the roof, as my Mom suggests. We have a very old snow blower but I may scrap my Dodge truck with bad tranny to purchase a new one, just in case we do not get enough snow for the plow now isn’t that a pleasant thought! I am always thinking.
I do not see the surgeon till the 11th but some good news, I have started to unfreeze the frozen part of the shoulder, not a lot but I see a difference. The horrible pain of tendon is there but if I use arm slowly it never rears its ugly head. I hate that pain. So depending on my options I will see if I can take one more shot to get through the worst of winter and maybe in March if it has not healed I will let him in to repair it, as our weather will start to look up by then. See always thinking.
I want to hit the gym every other day. With only one car, his truck it is hard. I only have to travel 3 miles each way so it is not bad maybe by spring I could ride a pedal bike that would be awesome.
I have also had a brilliant idea for a business and will apply to the Small Business Association for a loan. I could get out of this way of life if all goes well so please cross your fingers for me maybe your toes too. Thanks!
Holidays are not the same in this life I live now so just a few pretty things placed around the home to remind me it even on its way.
No children, no close family fun times, I will just be celebrating the birth of Christ this year and buying a small gift for a local child who will need a gift to open on Christmas Day. I look at what I used to be able to do for so many and now the new reality is charity begins at home. Save all year for heat and food and an occasional trip to the sea or woods to keep my sanity and not miss my old life so badly which it why I need you to keep the fingers and toes crossed because if all the good thoughts go out maybe just maybe I will have a new path doing good for others in need and getting paid and it is something I can do with my injuries.
Let me leave you with a pretty photo or two to lighten the heaviness of this post I am happy just a realist and life is what it is and there are really millions so much worse off. Which is why I always show you PRETTY THINGS there is enough ugly out there isn’t there.
Looking backing over my time here on WordPress it is clearly been a journey.
I have laughed and cried. I have shared ugly pictures and ones a little better. I have grown in ways I never thought possible. Who knew sitting down at the computer and choosing a name for my blog, would be the start to such a change in who I would become. At first hesitant till I learned my way around. Then meeting people from all walks of life who shared their world. Some take pretty photos that helped inspire me to shoot better each day. Some wrote poetry and invited me to join them though I floundered sadly there but I did make attempts, pushing myself out of my comfort zone. Others shared their lives. The day-to-day goings on. Farming, cooking, travel some I knew a little bit about others opened my eyes through their words or photos.
So back to the point of this challenge, Release Me. and it would have to be this post
Sharing the story of my decision so long ago.
I am glad I wrote it and even more so for living it. I am blessed for all I had and have and just over a month after that post I was clearly on my way to heal and let go at the retreat he had suggested.
So opening up and sharing this blog with the ones who would ultimately decide in their own minds if I was awful or kind was very hard but on the other hand I always knew in my heart I made the decision for him and I could handle anything, like sharing it with you.
I started out early one morning yes before the sun came up, as do most truckers. I had delivered one load of water, with my tanker, a few hours south of Boston. I stopped for coffee, for the ride back up to the mountains for my second load of the day. I walked around my rig kicking each tire as I do after hauling a load for few hours, all was good they were all still up and lights all were working properly so I made my way back into the driver’s seat.
I made the trip up into the mountains of New Hampshire for another tanker full of Spring Water. I took three or four loads a day, six to seven days a week into the bottling plants as we prepared for Y2K, do you remember that in 1999, as the world worried about life as the calendar turned to the year 2000? Well I had hauled rubbish, household waste for years then switched to hauling a nice clean load, one I never got my hands dirty or truck for that matter.
It was a gorgeous day out on the highways and back roads of New England. I reached the top of the mountain where the water came from the spring and backed up to test the water and load the tanker, all 8100 gallons. When it was over flowing I shut off the pump and closed the hatch on the top climbed down and went around to get back in the truck for load number two. I was grossing out at 103,000 pounds. Yes I had a reducible load permit, I was a Heavy Hauler.
I was always tense as I maneuvered my rig off the mountain, overlooking the Big Lake. See there was a stop sign at the bottom, silly engineers, and I don’t SWIM!
The ride through New Hampshire was once again beautiful and then I entered the highway where my speed increased and I was hammer down to get the load of water to the plant before they ran out yes that is how fast they were filling one gallon jugs.
As I made it to the tolls on Route 95 South I went through with my easy pass soon I would be in Massachusetts. This is where things went bad real bad and in a hurry. I had just gone over the nasty metal bridge in Newburyport when I saw a tire, yes a huge semi tire ready to cut in front of me. I had never felt anything at the moment it came off but now I looked to my left in the mirror and saw a school bus I blew the air horn very loudly turned on my emergency flashes to get everyone’s attention praying for myself to not hit this large tire and lose control of my rig and it’s load on board. I already had my foot off the accelerator trying to let it slow down so I could start dropping gears and make my way to the breakdown lane. Holding tightly to the wheel not knowing how this would play out I held my breath for what seemed like forever. This tire crossed in front of me and the bus and then headed for the median strip never loosing speed or falling over to stop the nightmare and then popped up beside a Black Saab, yes it has been 13 years plus and I remember vividly. The car thankfully was being driven by someone not texting or talking on their phone and they yanked the wheel to miss my tire it then went off the highway. totally.
Now as this was happening another tire came up beside me as I was trying to move over one lane at a time scared to death wondering if I could hold onto her as this had never happened to me not even in a car. This tire ran straight up beside me and then off to the right and over the embankment. You see I had 22 wheels on my rig and except for the two steering axle tires the rest of them were paired up.
I made it over to the breakdown lane and was happy my boyfriend was in the passenger seat for this trip not that he could do anything to stop the nightmare but I was shaking when I stopped and as he hugged me he said “I swear I do not know how you stay THAT COOL as you are at highway speeds and loose two tires and could have killed someone.” Who was COOL?
Now out of the truck and not wanting her to be destroyed by the weight and airbags and springs taking a beating I had him crank the landing gears on the tanker down and we unhooked the airlines and electrical plug and I pulled ahead. I then got out of the truck and I was so angry you see I had spent over $1,000.00 for two tires and new rims and all new wheel studs that weekend, I called my tire man from the side of the road and I can not say here what I said to him but I had him send a tow truck at HIS EXPENSE to come get me. I called the plant up in the mountains to send another driver for my tanker of water.
I then climbed back in the truck and then and only then did I EXHALE.
Life on the road is tough on drivers of rigs for they get no respect from other drivers but that day I earned their respect, for had I been a yahoo with no common sense they would not be here and you never would have lived a few moments in the rig with me. Yes I am a female trucker but a damn good one! Do you know the whole time this took place and then the wait that ensued I never saw one State Trooper you see they know me and I am responsible and courteous though at times going over the speed limit back in my trucking days, which is why I always put money back into my business equipment, my RIG, as I asked a lot of her. Now for the rest of the story some day I will finish it and title it THE TIRE MAN, as it is a good one!
A woman was just killed by a tire coming off a rig here in NH and I re-lived this event all over again bet you everyone on the road with me that day just over 13 years ago did too.
PAY ATTENTION not all things are within our power to PREVENT as I sadly learned.
While reading your blogs I realized how much I missed mine. Each day I want to write and share but usually nothing comes. Since April it has been very hard. Seems before it was easy to express myself and now being cleared of all the CLUTTER within me leaves me wondering if I really have much to say.
I am so happy poor but very, very happy. I am at peace and seems I had posts so full of sadness and despair oh yes Joy as well if you looked deeper within it was there but really I was just not whole.
I still see things others will never get and it is OK maybe they are not meant to.
Ok on with today’s RARE BLOG really from me NOT A RE-BLOG he he READY?
So I have not seen much of my Mom since my return from retreat and she has not ben well so I made it a point when I got my check this month to take the $30 in gas right out and go spend sometime with her after I was done with Shoulder PT appointment. Ron and JT came with me as even she is feeling more like herself never will something from China be consumed in my home by ANY OF US!
So I get to Mom’s and she is doubled over unable to stand up straight I tell her to use the cane more to hold herself up though her hands are bad and I understand why she doesn’t. She has had RA for 40 years or better been crippled then better now her spine is worsening as she has lost so much of her height. She now has 2 cracked or broken vertebrae she will never tell me as too many years I was broken so she tries to toughen it out. She actually said she was ready to go. What the hell does that mean? Ready to go she is healthy as an ox except for the pain and she refuses anything but Tylenol and we all know the dangers of that drug.
So I had gone down with the full intent to scrub floors, clean refrigerator, scrub the stove things you ought to stand to do and need to do for more than a minute. I went around the property of this home I grew up in and admired all the flowers she grew. She had some beauties. I went out to the front yard and saw a section of the garden beds I had done so much work on my whole adult life now looking so pitiful. I asked what she wanted to do about it as she insists she loves her home and doesn’t want to sell and move in with one of us or her own apartment with little she would have to do but care for herself. She says “I can’t do it anymore”. I have known this for a long time hell I can not do what I used to and I am 20 years younger. So I get her garden cart, shovel, rake and a bucket with soil and proceed to dig every last Iris and Lily mixed in with weeds and grass out of the front bed. I took each one and trimmed back the green growth and cleaned the roots and set them aside. I worked for 2 hours on them alone I did that sitting on the same front stairs as I had when I was a little girl all the while watching Mom insisting on sitting outside with me and JT she sat in a plastic lawn chair. Same kind I did my retreat in not that comfortable.
After I had them done I moved on to trim a bush them I really trimmed it pretty much till it was just above the soil as there was so much dead branches soon she would lose them anyway. As I worked on my feet she tried to play a little with JT. It was warm so the dog did not mind resting a lot.
I got to this beautiful bush and knew if it was up to me to add a fresh coat of paint to the front of this house I could not have shrubbery against it so again I began a hard prune taking out many dead branches. Well This is usually covered in bees and yes it was a beauty but so out of control. I came across something that saddened me. Seems our world is so full of filth and debris and so many slobs our little birds have learned to cope the best they can. See?
So much plastic trash was a part of this poor Mother Bird’s nest
I swear it looked as if it were a home in the projects it made me very sad.
Now wait till you see what her front yard looks like now.
We had not seen that last window for years she will have to pull the blinds down now till she decides if she wants to let it grow back or if we can make this place pretty with something easy to care for. I am not getting any younger either and with injuries even worse. Ron is in no better health he has lost so much weight and muscle and he is diabetic to boot.
All was not worrisome at Mom’s some of the day was delightful which is how I will end this post UPBEAT! 🙂
Mom painted this rock years ago and we thought the bees thought her artwork was real but then a guy I went to school with thought maybe they were just wanting to grab hold so they could get a drink. I told her to place a shallow dish with rock in it so birds could have their baths again 🙂
Remember she loves flowers like me so here are a few I took after I did all the work so they are not that good but still pretty
Thanks for coming to Mom’s with me.
She would love all of you. Each one is so very special to me XO